How can he', and he pointed at me with the same look
and gesture as that with which he pointed me out in his class, on, or
rather after, a particular occasion which he never fails to remind me
of, `know anything of a young ladies? He has his madmen to play with,
and to bring them back to happiness, and to those that love them. It
is much to do, and, oh, but there are rewards in that we can bestow
such happiness. But the young ladies! He has no wife nor daughter, and
the young do not tell themselves to the young, but to the old, like
me, who have known so many sorrows and the causes of them. So, my dear,
we will send him away to smoke the cigarette in the garden, whiles you
and I have little talk all to ourselves.' I took the hint, and strolled
about, and presently the professor came to the window and called me
in. He looked grave, but said, ` I have made careful examination, but
there is no functional cause. With you I agree that there has been much
blood lost, it has been but is not. But the conditions of her are in
no way anemic. I have asked her to send me her maid, that I may ask
just one or two questions, that so I may not chance to miss nothing.
I know well what she will say. And yet there is cause. There is always
cause for everything. I must go back home and think. You must send me
the telegram every day, and if there be cause I shall come again. The
disease, for not to be well is a disease, interest me, and the sweet,
young dear, she interest me too. She charm me, and for her, if not for
you or disease, I come.'
"As I tell you, he would not say a word more, even when we were
alone. And so now, Art, you know all I know. I shall keep stern watch.
I trust your poor father is rallying. It must be a terrible thing to
you, my dear old fellow, to be placed in such a position between two
people who are both so dear to you. I know your idea of duty to your
father, and you are right to stick to it. But if need be, I shall send
you word to come at once to Lucy, so do not be over-anxious unless you
hear from me."
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY
4 September.--Zoophagous patient still keeps up our interest in him.
He had only one outburst and that was yesterday at an unusual time.
Just before the stroke of noon he began to grow restless. The attendant
knew the symptoms, and at once summoned aid. Fortunately the men came
at a run, and were just in time, for at the stroke of noon he became
so violent that it took all their strength to hold him. In about five
minutes, however, he began to get more quiet, and finally sank into
a sort of melancholy, in which state he has remained up to now. The
attendant tells me that his screams whilst in the paroxysm were really
appalling. I found my hands full when I got in, attending to some of
the other patients who were frightened by him. Indeed, I can quite understand
the effect, for the sounds disturbed even me, though I was some distance
away. It is now after the dinner hour of the asylum, and as yet my patient
sits in a corner brooding, with a dull, sullen, woe-begone look in his
face, which seems rather to indicate than to show something directly.
I cannot quite understand it.
Later.--Another change in my patient. At five o'clock I looked in on
him, and found him seemingly as happy and contented as he used to be.
He was catching flies and eating them, and was keeping note of his capture
by making nailmarks on the edge of the door between the ridges of padding.
When he saw me, he came over and apologized for his bad conduct, and
asked me in a very humble, cringing way to be led back to his own room,
and to have his notebook again. I thought it well to humour him, so
he is back in his room with the window open. He has the sugar of his
tea spread out on the window sill, and is reaping quite a harvest of
flies. He is not now eating them, but putting them into a box, as of
old, and is already examining the corners of his room to find a spider.
I tried to get him to talk about the past few days, for any clue to
his thoughts would be of immense help to me, but he would not rise.
For a moment or two he looked very sad, and said in a sort of far away
voice, as though saying it rather to himself than to me.
"All over! All over! He has deserted me. No hope for me now unless
I do it myself!" Then suddenly turning to me in a resolute way,
he said, "Doctor, won't you be very good to me and let me have
a little more sugar? I think it would be very good for me."
"And the flies?" I said.
"Yes! The flies like it, too, and I like the flies, therefore I
like it."And there are people who know so little as to think that
madmen do not argue. I procured him a double supply, and left him as
happy a man as, I suppose, any in the world. I wish I could fathom his
mind.
Midnight.--Another change in him. I had been to see Miss Westenra, whom
I found much better, and had just returned, and was standing at our
own gate looking at the sunset, when once more I heard him yelling.
As his room is on this side of the house, I could hear it better than
in the morning. It was a shock to me to turn from the wonderful smoky
beauty of a sunset over London, with its lurid lights and inky shadows
and all the marvellous tints that come on foul clouds even as on foul
water, and to realize all the grim sternness of my own cold stone building,
with its wealth of breathing misery, and my own desolate heart to endure
it all. I reached him just as the sun was going down, and from his window
saw the red disc sink. As it sank he became less and less frenzied,
and just as it dipped he slid from the hands that held him, an inert
mass, on the floor. It is wonderful, however, what intellectual recuperative
power lunatics have, for within a few minutes he stood up quite calmly
and looked around him. I signalled to the attendants not to hold him,
for I was anxious to see what he would do. He went straight over to
the window and brushed out the crumbs of sugar. Then he took his fly
box, and emptied it outside, and threw away the box. Then he shut the
window, and crossing over, sat down on his bed. All this surprised me,
so I asked him, "Are you going to keep flies any more?"
"No," said he. "I am sick of all that rubbish!"
He certainly is a wonderfully interesting study. I wish I could get
some glimpse of his mind or of the cause of his sudden passion. Stop.
There may be a clue after all, if we can find why today his paroxysms
came on at high noon and at sunset. Can it be that there is a malign
influence of the sun at periods which affects certain natures, as at
times the moon does others? We shall see.
TELEGRAM. SEWARD, LONDON, TO VAN HELSING, AMSTERDAM
"4 September.--Patient still better today."
TELEGRAM, SEWARD, LONDON, TO VAN HELSING, AMSTERDAM
"5 September.--Patient greatly improved. Good appetite, sleeps
naturally, good spirits, color coming back."
TELEGRAM, SEWARD, LONDON, TO VAN HELSING, AMSTERDAM
"6 September.--Terrible change for the worse. Come at once. Do
not lose an hour. I hold over telegram to Holmwood till have seen you."
CHAPTER 10
LETTER, DR. SEWARD TO HON. ARTHUR HOLMWOOD
6 September
"My dear Art,
"My news today is not so good. Lucy this morning had gone back
a bit. There is, however, one good thing which has arisen from it. Mrs.
Westenra was naturally anxious concerning Lucy, and has consulted me
professionally about her. I took advantage of the opportunity, and told
her that my old master, Van Helsing, the great specialist, was coming
to stay with me, and that I would put her in his charge conjointly with
myself. So now we can come and go without alarming her unduly, for a
shock to her would mean sudden death, and this, in Lucy's weak condition,
might be disastrous to her. We are hedged in with difficulties, all
of us, my poor fellow, but, please God, we shall come through them all
right. If any need I shall write, so that, if you do not hear from me,
take it for granted that I am simply waiting for news, In haste,
"Yours ever,"
John Seward
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY
7 September.--The first thing Van Helsing said to me when we met at
Liverpool Street was, "Have you said anything to our young friend,
to lover of her?"
"No," I said. "I waited till I had seen you, as I said
in my telegram. I wrote him a letter simply telling him that you were
coming, as Miss Westenra was not so well, and that I should let him
know if need be."
"Right, my friend," he said. "Quite right! Better he
not know as yet. Perhaps he will never know. I pray so, but if it be
needed, then he shall know all. And, my good friend John, let me caution
you. You deal with the madmen. All men are mad in some way or the other,
and inasmuch as you deal discreetly with your madmen, so deal with God's
madmen too, the rest of the world. You tell not your madmen what you
do nor why you do it. You tell them not what you think. So you shall
keep knowledge in its place, where it may rest, where it may gather
its kind around it and breed. You and I shall keep as yet what we know
here, and here." He touched me on the heart and on the forehead,
and then touched himself the same way. "I have for myself thoughts
at the present. Later I shall unfold to you."
"Why not now?" I asked. "It may do some good. We may
arrive at some decision."He looked at me and said, "My friend
John, when the corn is grown, even before it has ripened, while the
milk of its mother earth is in him, and the sunshine has not yet begun
to paint him with his gold, the husbandman he pull the ear and rub him
between his rough hands, and blow away the green chaff, and say to you,
'Look! He's good corn, he will make a good crop when the time comes.'
"
I did not see the application and told him so. For reply he reached
over and took my ear in his hand and pulled it playfully, as he used
long ago to do at lectures, and said, "The good husbandman tell
you so then because he knows, but not till then. But you do not find
the good husbandman dig up his planted corn to see if he grow. That
is for the children who play at husbandry, and not for those who take
it as of the work of their life. See you now, friend John? I have sown
my corn, and Nature has her work to do in making it sprout, if he sprout
at all, there's some promise, and I wait till the ear begins to swell."
He broke off, for he evidently saw that I understood. Then he went on
gravely, "You were always a careful student, and your case book
was ever more full than the rest. And I trust that good habit have not
fail. Remember, my friend, that knowledge is stronger than memory, and
we should not trust the weaker. Even if you have not kept the good practice,
let me tell you that this case of our dear miss is one that may be,
mind, I say may be, of such interest to us and others that all the rest
may not make him kick the beam, as your people say. Take then good note
of it. Nothing is too small. I counsel you, put down in record even
your doubts and surmises. Hereafter it may be of interest to you to
see how true you guess. We learn from failure, not from success!"
When I described Lucy's symptoms, the same as before, but infinitely
more marked, he looked very grave, but said nothing. He took with him
a bag in which were many instruments and drugs, "the ghastly paraphernalia
of our beneficial trade," as he once called, in one of his lectures,
the equipment of a professor of the healing craft.
When we were shown in, Mrs. Westenra met us. She was alarmed, but not
nearly so much as I expected to find her. Nature in one of her beneficient
moods has ordained that even death has some antidote to its own terrors.
Here, in a case where any shock may prove fatal, matters are so ordered
that, from some cause or other, the things not personal, even the terrible
change in her daughter to whom she is so attached, do not seem to reach
her. It is something like the way dame Nature gathers round a foreign
body an envelope of some insensitive tissue which can protect from evil
that which it would otherwise harm by contact. If this be an ordered
selfishness, then we should pause before we condemn any one for the
vice of egoism, for there may be deeper root for its causes than we
have knowledge of.
I used my knowledge of this phase of spiritual pathology, and set down
a rule that she should not be present with Lucy, or think of her illness
more than was absolutely required. She assented readily, so readily
that I saw again the hand of Nature fighting for life. Van Helsing and
I were shown up to Lucy's room. If I was shocked when I saw her yesterday,
I was horrified when I saw her today.
She was ghastly, chalkily pale. The red seemed to have gone even from
her lips and gums, and the bones of her face stood out prominently.
Her breathing was painful to see or hear. Van Helsing's face grew set
as marble, and his eyebrows converged till they almost touched over
his nose. Lucy lay motionless, and did not seem to have strength to
speak, so for a while we were all silent. Then Van Helsing beckoned
to me, and we went gently out of the room. The instant we had closed
the door he stepped quickly along the passage to the next door, which
was open. Then he pulled me quickly in with him and closed the door.
"My god!" he said. "This is dreadful. There is not time
to be lost. She will die for sheer want of blood to keep the heart's
action as it should be. There must be a transfusion of blood at once.
Is it you or me?"
"I am younger and stronger, Professor. It must be me."
"Then get ready at once. I will bring up my bag. I am prepared."
I went downstairs with him, and as we were going there was a knock at
the hall door. When we reached the hall, the maid had just opened the
door, and Arthur was stepping quickly in. He rushed up to me, saying
in an eager whisper,
"Jack, I was so anxious. I read between the lines of your letter,
and have been in an agony. The dad was better, so I ran down here to
see for myself. Is not that gentleman Dr. Van Helsing? I am so thankful
to you, sir, for coming."
When first the Professor's eye had lit upon him, he had been angry at
his interruption at such a time, but now, as he took in his stalwart
proportions and recognized the strong young manhood which seemed to
emanate from him, his eyes gleamed. Without a pause he said to him as
he held out his hand,
"Sir, you have come in time. You are the lover of our dear miss.
She is bad, very, very bad. Nay, my child, do not go like that."For
he suddenly grew pale and sat down in a chair almost fainting. "You
are to help her. You can do more than any that live, and your courage
is your best help."
"What can I do?" asked Arthur hoarsely. "Tell me, and
I shall do it. My life is hers' and I would give the last drop of blood
in my body for her."
The Professor has a strongly humorous side, and I could from old knowledge
detect a trace of its origin in his answer.
"My young sir, I do not ask so much as that, not the last!"
"What shall I do?" There was fire in his eyes, and his open
nostrils quivered with intent. Van Helsing slapped him on the shoulder.
"Come!" he said. "You are a man, and it is a man we want.
You are better than me, better than my friend John." Arthur looked
bewildered, and the Professor went on by explaining in a kindly way.
"Young miss is bad, very bad. She wants blood, and blood she must
have or die. My friend John and I have consulted, and we are about to
perform what we call transfusion of blood, to transfer from full veins
of one to the empty veins which pine for him. John was to give his blood,
as he is the more young and strong than me."--Here Arthur took
my hand and wrung it hard in silence.--"But now you are here, you
are more good than us, old or young, who toil much in the world of thought.
Our nerves are not so calm and our blood so bright than yours!"
Arthur turned to him and said, "If you only knew how gladly I would
die for her you would understand. . ." He stopped with a sort of
choke in his voice.
"Good boy!" said Van Helsing. "In the not-so-far-off
you will be happy that you have done all for her you love. Come now
and be silent. You shall kiss her once before it is done, but then you
must go, and you must leave at my sign. Say no word to Madame. You know
how it is with her. There must be no shock, any knowledge of this would
be one. Come!"
We all went up to Lucy's room. Arthur by direction remained outside.
Lucy turned her head and looked at us, but said nothing. She was not
asleep, but she was simply too weak to make the effort. Her eyes spoke
to us, that was all.
Van Helsing took some things from his bag and laid them on a little
table out of sight. Then he mixed a narcotic, and coming over to the
bed, said cheerily, "Now, little miss, here is your medicine. Drink
it off, like a good child. See, I lift you so that to swallow is easy.
Yes." She had made the effort with success.
It astonished me how long the drug took to act. This, in fact, marked
the extent of her weakness. The time seemed endless until sleep began
to flicker in her eyelids. At last, however, the narcotic began to manifest
its potency, and she fell into a deep sleep. When the Professor was
satisfied, he called Arthur into the room, and bade him strip off his
coat. Then he added, "You may take that one little kiss whiles
I bring over the table. Friend John, help to me!" So neither of
us looked whilst he bent over her.
Van Helsing, turning to me, said, "He is so young and strong, and
of blood so pure that we need not defibrinate it."
Then with swiftness, but with absolute method, Van Helsing performed
the operation. As the transfusion went on, something like life seemed
to come back to poor Lucy's cheeks, and through Arthur's growing pallor
the joy of his face seemed absolutely to shine. After a bit I began
to grow anxious, for the loss of blood was telling on Arthur, strong
man as he was. It gave me an idea of what a terrible strain Lucy's system
must have undergone that what weakened Arthur only partially restored
her.
But the Professor's face was set, and he stood watch in hand, and with
his eyes fixed now on the patient and now on Arthur. I could hear my
own heart beat. Presently, he said in a soft voice, "Do not stir
an instant. It is enough. You attend him. I will look to her."
When all was over, I could see how much Arthur was weakened. I dressed
the wound and took his arm to bring him away, when Van Helsing spoke
without turning round, the man seems to have eyes in the back of his
head, "The brave lover, I think, deserve another kiss, which he
shall have presently." And as he had now finished his operation,
he adjusted the pillow to the patient's head. As he did so the narrow
black velvet band which she seems always to wear round her throat, buckled
with an old diamond buckle which her lover had given her, was dragged
a little up, and showed a red mark on her throat.
Arthur did not notice it, but I could hear the deep hiss of indrawn
breath which is one of Van Helsing's ways of betraying emotion. He said
nothing at the moment, but turned to me, saying, "Now take down
our brave young lover, give him of the port wine, and let him lie down
a while. He must then go home and rest, sleep much and eat much, that
he may be recruited of what he has so given to his love. He must not
stay here. Hold a moment! I may take it, sir, that you are anxious of
result. Then bring it with you, that in all ways the operation is successful.
You have saved her life this time, and you can go home and rest easy
in mind that all that can be is. I shall tell her all when she is well.
She shall love you none the less for what you have done. Goodbye."
When Arthur had gone I went back to the room. Lucy was sleeping gently,
but her breathing was stronger. I could see the counterpane move as
her breast heaved. By the bedside sat Van Helsing, looking at her intently.
The velvet band again covered the red mark. I asked the Professor in
a whisper, "What do you make of that mark on her throat?"
"What do you make of it?"
"I have not examined it yet," I answered, and then and there
proceeded to loose the band. Just over the external jugular vein there
were two punctures, not large, but not wholesome looking. There was
no sign of disease, but the edges were white and worn looking, as if
by some trituration. It at once occurred to me that that this wound,
or whatever it was, might be the means of that manifest loss of blood.
But I abandoned the idea as soon as it formed, for such a thing could
not be. The whole bed would have been drenched to a scarlet with the
blood which the girl must have lost to leave such a pallor as she had
before the transfusion.
"Well?" said Van Helsing.
"Well," said I. "I can make nothing of it."
The Professor stood up. "I must go back to Amsterdam tonight,"
he said "There are books and things there which I want. You must
remain here all night, and you must not let your sight pass from her."
"Shall I have a nurse?" I asked.
"We are the best nurses, you and I. You keep watch all night. See
that she is well fed, and that nothing disturbs her. You must not sleep
all the night. Later on we can sleep, you and I. I shall be back as
soon as possible. And then we may begin."
"May begin?" I said. "What on earth do you mean?"
"We shall see!" he answered, as he hurried out. He came back
a moment later and put his head inside the door and said with a warning
finger held up, "Remember, she is your charge. If you leave her,
and harm befall, you shall not sleep easy hereafter!"
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY--CONTINUED
8 September.--I sat up all night with Lucy. The opiate worked itself
off towards dusk, and she waked naturally. She looked a different being
from what she had been before the operation. Her spirits even were good,
and she was full of a happy vivacity, but I could see evidences of the
absolute prostration which she had undergone. When I told Mrs. Westenra
that Dr. Van Helsing had directed that I should sit up with her, she
almost pooh-poohed the idea, pointing out her daughter's renewed strength
and excellent spirits. I was firm, however, and made preparations for
my long vigil. When her maid had prepared her for the night I came in,
having in the meantime had supper, and took a seat by the bedside.
She did not in any way make objection, but looked at me gratefully whenever
I caught her eye. After a long spell she seemed sinking off to sleep,
but with an effort seemed to pull herself together and shook it off.
It was apparent that she did not want to sleep, so I tackled the subject
at once.
"You do not want to sleep?"
"No. I am afraid."
"Afraid to go to sleep! Why so? It is the boon we all crave for."
"Ah, not if you were like me, if sleep was to you a presage of
horror!"
"A presage of horror! What on earth do you mean?"
"I don't know. Oh, I don't know. And that is what is so terrible.
All this weakness comes to me in sleep, until I dread the very thought."
"But, my dear girl, you may sleep tonight. I am here watching you,
and I can promise that nothing will happen."
"Ah, I can trust you!" she said.
I seized the opportunity, and said, "I promise that if I see any
evidence of bad dreams I will wake you at once."
"You will? Oh, will you really? How good you are to me. Then I
will sleep!" And almost at the word she gave a deep sigh of relief,
and sank back, asleep.
All night long I watched by her. She never stirred, but slept on and
on in a deep, tranquil, life-giving, health-giving sleep. Her lips were
slightly parted, and her breast rose and fell with the regularity of
a pendulum. There was a smile on her face, and it was evident that no
bad dreams had come to disturb her peace of mind.
In the early morning her maid came, and I left her in her care and took
myself back home, for I was anxious about many things. I sent a short
wire to Van Helsing and to Arthur, telling them of the excellent result
of the operation. My own work, with its manifold arrears, took me all
day to clear off. It was dark when I was able to inquire about my zoophagous
patient. The report was good. He had been quite quiet for the past day
and night. A telegram came from Van Helsing at Amsterdam whilst I was
at dinner, suggesting that I should be at Hillingham tonight, as it
might be well to be at hand, and stating that he was leaving by the
night mail and would join me early in the morning.
9 September.--I was pretty tired and worn out when I got to Hillingham.
For two nights I had hardly had a wink of sleep, and my brain was beginning
to feel that numbness which marks cerebral exhaustion. Lucy was up and
in cheerful spirits. When she shook hands with me she looked sharply
in my face and said,
"No sitting up tonight for you. You are worn out. I am quite well
again. Indeed, I am, and if there is to be any sitting up, it is I who
will sit up with you."
I would not argue the point, but went and had my supper. Lucy came with
me, and, enlivened by her charming presence, I made an excellent meal,
and had a couple of glasses of the more than excellent port. Then Lucy
took me upstairs, and showed me a room next her own, where a cozy fire
was burning.
"Now," she said. "You must stay here. I shall leave this
door open and my door too. You can lie on the sofa for I know that nothing
would induce any of you doctors to go to bed whilst there is a patient
above the horizon. If I want anything I shall call out, and you can
come to me at once."
I could not but acquiesce, for I was dog tired, and could not have sat
up had I tried. So, on her renewing her promise to call me if she should
want anything, I lay on the sofa, and forgot all about everything.
LUCY WESTENRA'S DIARY
9 September.--I feel so happy tonight. I have been so miserably weak,
that to be able to think and move about is like feeling sunshine after
a long spell of east wind out of a steel sky. Somehow Arthur feels very,
very close to me. I seem to feel his presence warm about me. I suppose
it is that sickness and weakness are selfish things and turn our inner
eyes and sympathy on ourselves, whilst health and strength give love
rein, and in thought and feeling he can wander where he wills. I know
where my thoughts are. If only Arthur knew! My dear, my dear, your ears
must tingle as you sleep, as mine do waking. Oh, the blissful rest of
last night! How I slept, with that dear, good Dr. Seward watching me.
And tonight I shall not fear to sleep, since he is close at hand and
within call. Thank everybody for being so good to me. Thank God! Goodnight
Arthur.
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY
10 September.--I was conscious of the Professor's hand on my head, and
started awake all in a second. That is one of the things that we learn
in an asylum, at any rate.
"And how is our patient?"
"Well, when I left her, or rather when she left me," I answered.
"Come, let us see," he said. And together we went into the
room.
The blind was down, and I went over to raise it gently, whilst Van Helsing
stepped, with his soft, cat-like tread, over to the bed.
As I raised the blind, and the morning sunlight flooded the room, I
heard the Professor's low hiss of inspiration, and knowing its rarity,
a deadly fear shot through my heart. As I passed over he moved back,
and his exclamation of horror, "Gott in Himmel!" needed no
enforcement from his agonized face. He raised his hand and pointed to
the bed, and his iron face was drawn and ashen white. I felt my knees
begin to tremble.
There on the bed, seemingly in a swoon, lay poor Lucy, more horribly
white and wan-looking than ever. Even the lips were white, and the gums
seemed to have shrunken back from the teeth, as we sometimes see in
a corpse after a prolonged illness.
Van Helsing raised his foot to stamp in anger, but the instinct of his
life and all the long years of habit stood to him, and he put it down
again softly.
"Quick!" he said. "Bring the brandy."
I flew to the dining room, and returned with the decanter. He wetted
the poor white lips with it, and together we rubbed palm and wrist and
heart. He felt her heart, and after a few moments of agonizing suspense
said,
"It is not too late. It beats, though but feebly. All our work
is undone. We must begin again. There is no young Arthur here now. I
have to call on you yourself this time, friend John." As he spoke,
he was dipping into his bag, and producing the instruments of transfusion.
I had taken off my coat and rolled up my shirt sleeve. There was no
possibility of an opiate just at present, and no need of one. and so,
without a moment's delay, we began the operation.
After a time, it did not seem a short time either, for the draining
away of one's blood, no matter how willingly it be given, is a terrible
feeling, Van Helsing held up a warning finger. "Do not stir,"
he said. "But I fear that with growing strength she may wake, and
that would make danger, oh, so much danger. But I shall precaution take.
I shall give hypodermic injection of morphia." He proceeded then,
swiftly and deftly, to carry out his intent.
The effect on Lucy was not bad, for the faint seemed to merge subtly
into the narcotic sleep. It was with a feeling of personal pride that
I could see a faint tinge of color steal back into the pallid cheeks
and lips. No man knows, till he experiences it, what it is to feel his
own lifeblood drawn away into the veins of the woman he loves.
The Professor watched me critically. "That will do," he said.
"Already?" I remonstrated. "You took a great deal more
from Art." To which he smiled a sad sort of smile as he replied,
"He is her lover, her fiance. You have work, much work to do for
her and for others, and the present will suffice.
When we stopped the operation, he attended to Lucy, whilst I applied
digital pressure to my own incision. I laid down, while I waited his
leisure to attend to me, for I felt faint and a little sick. By and
by he bound up my wound, and sent me downstairs to get a glass of wine
for myself. As I was leaving the room, he came after me, and half whispered.
"Mind, nothing must be said of this. If our young lover should
turn up unexpected, as before, no word to him. It would at once frighten
him and enjealous him, too. There must be none. So!"
When I came back he looked at me carefully, and then said, "You
are not much the worse. Go into the room, and lie on your sofa, and
rest awhile, then have much breakfast and come here to me."
I followed out his orders, for I knew how right and wise they were.
I had done my part, and now my next duty was to keep up my strength.
I felt very weak, and in the weakness lost something of the amazement
at what had occurred. I fell asleep on the sofa, however, wondering
over and over again how Lucy had made such a retrograde movement, and
how she could have been drained of so much blood with no sign any where
to show for it. I think I must have continued my wonder in my dreams,
for, sleeping and waking my thoughts always came back to the little
punctures in her throat and the ragged, exhausted appearance of their
edges, tiny though they were.
Lucy slept well into the day, and when she woke she was fairly well
and strong, though not nearly so much so as the day before. When Van
Helsing had seen her, he went out for a walk, leaving me in charge,
with strict injunctions that I was not to leave her for a moment. I
could hear his voice in the hall, asking the way to the nearest telegraph
office.
Lucy chatted with me freely, and seemed quite unconscious that anything
had happened. I tried to keep her amused and interested. When her mother
came up to see her, she did not seem to notice any change whatever,
but said to me gratefully,
"We owe you so much, Dr. Seward, for all you have done, but you
really must now take care not to overwork yourself. You are looking
pale yourself. You want a wife to nurse and look after you a bit, that
you do!" As she spoke, Lucy turned crimson, though it was only
momentarily, for her poor wasted veins could not stand for long an unwonted
drain to the head. The reaction came in excessive pallor as she turned
imploring eyes on me. I smiled and nodded, and laid my finger on my
lips. With a sigh, she sank back amid her pillows.
Van Helsing returned in a couple of hours, and presently said to me.
"Now you go home, and eat much and drink enough. Make yourself
strong. I stay here tonight, and I shall sit up with little miss myself.
You and I must watch the case, and we must have none other to know.
I have grave reasons. No, do not ask the. Think what you will. Do not
fear to think even the most not-improbable. Goodnight."
In the hall two of the maids came to me, and asked if they or either
of them might not sit up with Miss Lucy. They implored me to let them,
and when I said it was Dr. Van Helsing's wish that either he or I should
sit up, they asked me quite piteously to intercede with the`foreign
gentleman'. I was much touched by their kindness. Perhaps it is because
I am weak at present, and perhaps because it was on Lucy's account,
that their devotion was manifested. For over and over again have I seen
similar instances of woman's kindness. I got back here in time for a
late dinner, went my rounds, all well, and set this down whilst waiting
for sleep. It is coming.
11 September.--This afternoon I went over to Hillingham. Found Van Helsing
in excellent spirits, and Lucy much better. Shortly after I had arrived,
a big parcel from abroad came for the Professor. He opened it with much
impressment, assumed, of course, and showed a great bundle of white
flowers.
"These are for you, Miss Lucy," he said.
"For me? Oh, Dr. Van Helsing!"
"Yes, my dear, but not for you to play with. These are medicines."
Here Lucy made a wry face. "Nay, but they are not to take in a
decoction or in nauseous form, so you need not snub that so charming
nose, or I shall point out to my friend Arthur what woes he may have
to endure in seeing so much beauty that he so loves so much distort.
Aha, my pretty miss, that bring the so nice nose all straight again.
This is medicinal, but you do not know how. I put him in your window,
I make pretty wreath, and hang him round your neck, so you sleep well.
Oh, yes! They, like the lotus flower, make your trouble forgotten. It
smell so like the waters of Lethe, and of that fountain of youth that
the Conquistadores sought for in the Floridas, and find him all too
late."
Whilst he was speaking, Lucy had been examining the flowers and smelling
them. Now she threw them down saying, with half laughter, and half disgust,
"Oh, Professor, I believe you are only putting up a joke on me.
Why, these flowers are only common garlic."
To my surprise, Van Helsing rose up and said with all his sternness,
his iron jaw set and his bushy eyebrows meeting,
"No trifling with me! I never jest! There is grim purpose in what
I do, and I warn you that you do not thwart me. Take care, for the sake
of others if not for your own." Then seeing poor Lucy scared, as
she might well be, he went on more gently, "Oh, little miss, my
dear, do not fear me. I only do for your good, but there is much virtue
to you in those so common flowers. See, I place them myself in your
room. I make myself the wreath that you are to wear. But hush! No telling
to others that make so inquisitive questions. We must obey, and silence
is a part of obedience, and obedience is to bring you strong and well
into loving arms that wait for you. Now sit still a while. Come with
me, friend John, and you shall help me deck the room with my garlic,
which is all the war from Haarlem, where my friend Vanderpool raise
herb in his glass houses all the year. I had to telegraph yesterday,
or they would not have been here."
We went into the room, taking the flowers with us. The Professor's actions
were certainly odd and not to be found in any pharmacopeia that I ever
heard of. First he fastened up the windows and latched them securely.
Next, taking a handful of the flowers, he rubbed them all over the sashes,
as though to ensure that every whiff of air that might get in would
be laden with the garlic smell. Then with the wisp he rubbed all over
the jamb of the door, above, below, and at each side, and round the
fireplace in the same way. It all seemed grotesque to me, and presently
I said, "Well, Professor, I know you always have a reason for what
you do, but this certainly puzzles me. It is well we have no sceptic
here, or he would say that you were working some spell to keep out an
evil spirit."
"Perhaps I am!" He answered quietly as he began to make the
wreath which Lucy was to wear round her neck.
We then waited whilst Lucy made her toilet for the night, and when she
was in bed he came and himself fixed the wreath of garlic round her
neck. The last words he said to her were,
"Take care you do not disturb it, and even if the room feel close,
do not tonight open the window or the door."
"I promise," said Lucy. "And thank you both a thousand
times for all your kindness to me! Oh, what have I done to be blessed
with such friends?"
As we left the house in my fly, which was waiting, Van Helsing said,
"Tonight I can sleep in peace, and sleep I want, two nights of
travel, much reading in the day between, and much anxiety on the day
to follow, and a night to sit up, without to wink. Tomorrow in the morning
early you call for me, and we come together to see our pretty miss,
so much more strong for my `spell' which I have work. Ho, ho!"
He seemed so confident that I, remembering my own confidence two nights
before and with the baneful result, felt awe and vague terror. It must
have been my weakness that made me hesitate to tell it to my friend,
but I felt it all the more, like unshed tears.
CHAPTER 11
LUCY WESTENRA'S DIARY
12 September.--How good they all are to me. I quite love that dear Dr.
Van Helsing. I wonder why he was so anxious about these flowers. He
positively frightened me, he was so fierce. And yet he must have been
right, for I feel comfort from them already. Somehow, I do not dread
being alone tonight, and I can go to sleep without fear. I shall not
mind any flapping outside the window. Oh, the terrible struggle that
I have had against sleep so often of late, the pain of sleeplessness,
or the pain of the fear of sleep, and with such unknown horrors as it
has for me! How blessed are some people, whose lives have no fears,
no dreads, to whom sleep is a blessing that comes nightly, and brings
nothing but sweet dreams. Well, here I am tonight, hoping for sleep,
and lying like Ophelia in the play, with`virgin crants and maiden strewments.'
I never liked garlic before, but tonight it is delightful! There is
peace in its smell. I feel sleep coming already. Goodnight, everybody.
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY
13 September.--Called at the Berkeley and found Van Helsing, as usual,
up to time. The carriage ordered from the hotel was waiting. The Professor
took his bag, which he always brings with him now.
Let all be put down exactly. Van Helsing and I arrived at Hillingham
at eight o'clock. It was a lovely morning. The bright sunshine and all
the fresh feeling of early autumn seemed like the completion of nature's
annual work. The leaves were turning to all kinds of beautiful colors,
but had not yet begun to drop from the trees. When we entered we met
Mrs. Westenra coming out of the morning room. She is always an early
riser. She greeted us warmly and said,
"You will be glad to know that Lucy is better. The dear child is
still asleep. I looked into her room and saw her, but did not go in,
lest I should disturb her." The Professor smiled, and looked quite
jubilant. He rubbed his hands together, and said, "Aha! I thought
I had diagnosed the case. My treatment is working."
To which she replied, "You must not take all the credit to yourself,
doctor. Lucy's state this morning is due in part to me."
"How do you mean, ma'am?" asked the Professor.
"Well, I was anxious about the dear child in the night, and went
into her room. She was sleeping soundly, so soundly that even my coming
did not wake her. But the room was awfully stuffy. There were a lot
of those horrible, strong-smelling flowers about everywhere, and she
had actually a bunch of them round her neck. I feared that the heavy
odor would be too much for the dear child in her weak state, so I took
them all away and opened a bit of the window to let in a little fresh
air. You will be pleased with her, I am sure."
She moved off into her boudoir, where she usually breakfasted early.
As she had spoken, I watched the Professor's face, and saw it turn ashen
gray. He had been able to retain his self-command whilst the poor lady
was present, for he knew her state and how mischievous a shock would
be. He actually smiled on her as he held open the door for her to pass
into her room. But the instant she had disappeared he pulled me, suddenly
and forcibly, into the dining room and closed the door.
Then, for the first time in my life, I saw Van Helsing break down. He
raised his hands over his head in a sort of mute despair, and then beat
his palms together in a helpless way. Finally he sat down on a chair,
and putting his hands before his face, began to sob, with loud, dry
sobs that seemed to come from the very racking of his heart.
Then he raised his arms again, as though appealing to the whole universe.
"God! God! God!" he said. "What have we done, what has
this poor thing done, that we are so sore beset? Is there fate amongst
us still, send down from the pagan world of old, that such things must
be, and in such way? This poor mother, all unknowing, and all for the
best as she think, does such thing as lose her daughter body and soul,
and we must not tell her, we must not even warn her, or she die, then
both die. Oh, how we are beset! How are all the powers of the devils
against us!"
Suddenly he jumped to his feet. "Come," he said."come,
we must see and act. Devils or no devils, or all the devils at once,
it matters not. We must fight him all the same." He went to the
hall door for his bag, and together we went up to Lucy's room.
Once again I drew up the blind, whilst Van Helsing went towards the
bed. This time he did not start as he looked on the poor face with the
same awful, waxen pallor as before. He wore a look of stern sadness
and infinite pity.
"As I expected," he murmured, with that hissing inspiration
of his which meant so much. Without a word he went and locked the door,
and then began to set out on the little table the instruments for yet
another operation of transfusion of blood. I had long ago recognized
the necessity, and begun to take off my coat, but he stopped me with
a warning hand. "No!" he said. "Today you must operate.
I shall provide. You are weakened already." As he spoke he took
off his coat and rolled up his shirtsleeve.
Again the operation. Again the narcotic. Again some return of color
to the ashy cheeks, and the regular breathing of healthy sleep. This
time I watched whilst Van Helsing recruited himself and rested.
Presently he took an opportunity of telling Mrs. Westenra that she must
not remove anything from Lucy's room without consulting him. That the
flowers were of medicinal value, and that the breathing of their odor
was a part of the system of cure. Then he took over the care of the
case himself, saying that he would watch this night and the next, and
would send me word when to come.
After another hour Lucy waked from her sleep, fresh and bright and seemingly
not much the worse for her terrible ordeal.
What does it all mean? I am beginning to wonder if my long habit of
life amongst the insane is beginning to tell upon my own brain.
LUCY WESTENRA'S DIARY
17 September.--Four days and nights of peace. I am getting so strong
again that I hardly know myself. It is as if I had passed through some
long nightmare, and had just awakened to see the beautiful sunshine
and feel the fresh air of the morning around me. I have a dim half remembrance
of long, anxious times of waiting and fearing, darkness in which there
was not even the pain of hope to make present distress more poignant.
And then long spells of oblivion, and the rising back to life as a diver
coming up through a great press of water. Since, however, Dr. Van Helsing
has been with me, all this bad dreaming seems to have passed away. The
noises that used to frighten me out of my wits, the flapping against
the windows, the distant voices which seemed so close to me, the harsh
sounds that came from I know not where and commanded me to do I know
not what, have all ceased. I go to bed now without any fear of sleep.
I do not even try to keep awake. I have grown quite fond of the garlic,
and a boxful arrives for me every day from Haarlem. Tonight Dr. Van
Helsing is going away, as he has to be for a day in Amsterdam. But I
need not be watched. I am well enough to be left alone.
Thank God for Mother's sake, and dear Arthur's, and for all our friends
who have been so kind! I shall not even feel the change, for last night
Dr. Van Helsing slept in his chair a lot of the time. I found him asleep
twice when I awoke. But I did not fear to go to sleep again, although
the boughs or bats or something flapped almost angrily against the window
panes.
THE PALL MALL GAZETTE 18 September.
THE ESCAPED WOLF PERILOUS ADVENTURE OF OUR INTERVIEWER
INTERVIEW WITH THE KEEPER IN THE ZOOLOGICAL GARDENS
After many inquiries and almost as many refusals, and perpetually using
the words `PALL MALL GAZETTE ' as a sort of talisman, I managed to find
the keeper of the section of the Zoological Gardens in which the wold
department is included. Thomas Bilder lives in one of the cottages in
the enclosure behind the elephant house, and was just sitting down to
his tea when I found him. Thomas and his wife are hospitable folk, elderly,
and without children, and if the specimen I enjoyed of their hospitality
be of the average kind, their lives must be pretty comfortable. The
keeper would not enter on what he called business until the supper was
over, and we were all satisfied. Then when the table was cleared, and
he had lit his pipe, he said,
"Now, Sir, you can go on and arsk me what you want. You'll excoose
me refoosin' to talk of perfeshunal subjucts afore meals. I gives the
wolves and the jackals and the hyenas in all our section their tea afore
I begins to arsk them questions."
"How do you mean, ask them questions?" I queried, wishful
to get him into a talkative humor.
" `Ittin' of them over the `ead with a pole is one way. Scratchin'
of their ears in another, when gents as is flush wants a bit of a show-orf
to their gals. I don't so much mind the fust, the `ittin of the pole
part afore I chucks in their dinner, but I waits till they've `ad their
sherry and kawffee, so to speak, afore I tries on with the ear scratchin'.
Mind you," he added philosophically, "there's a deal of the
same nature in us as in them theer animiles. Here's you a-comin' and
arskin' of me questions about my business, and I that grump-like that
only for your bloomin' `arf-quid I'd `a' seen you blowed fust `fore
I'd answer. Not even when you arsked me sarcastic like if I'd like you
to arsk the Superintendent if you might arsk me questions. Without offence
did I tell yer to go to `ell?"
"You did."
"An' when you said you'd report me for usin' obscene language that
was `ittin' me over the `ead. But the `arf-quid made that all right.
I weren't a-goin' to fight, so I waited for the food, and did with my
`owl as the wolves and lions and tigers does. But, lor' love yer `art,
now that the old `ooman has stuck a chunk of her tea-cake in me, an'
rinsed me out with her bloomin' old teapot, and I've lit hup, you may
scratch my ears for all you're worth, and won't even get a growl out
of me. Drive along with your questions. I know what yer a-comin' at,
that `ere escaped wolf."
"Exactly. I want you to give me your view of it. Just tell me how
it happened, and when I know the facts I'll get you to say what you
consider was the cause of it, and how you think the whole affair will
end."
"All right, guv'nor. This `ere is about the `ole story. That`ere
wolf what we called Bersicker was one of three gray ones that came from
Norway to Jamrach's, which we bought off him four years ago. He was
a nice well-behaved wolf, that never gave no trouble to talk of. I'm
more surprised at `im for wantin' to get out nor any other animile in
the place. But, there, you can't trust wolves no more nor women."
"Don't you mind him, Sir!" broke in Mrs. Tom, with a cheery
laugh. " `E's got mindin' the animiles so long that blest if he
ain't like a old wolf `isself! But there ain't no `arm in `im."
"Well, Sir, it was about two hours after feedin' yesterday when
I first hear my disturbance. I was makin' up a litter in the monkey
house for a young puma which is ill. But when I heard the yelpin' and
`owlin' I kem away straight. There was Bersicker a-tearin' like a mad
thing at the bars as if he wanted to get out. There wasn't much people
about that day, and close at hand was only one man, a tall, thin chap,
with a `ook nose and a pointed beard, with a few white hairs runnin'
through it. He had a `ard, cold look and red eyes, and I took a sort
of mislike to him, for it seemed as if it was `im as they was hirritated
at. He `ad white kid gloves on `is `ands, and he pointed out the animiles
to me and says, `Keeper, these wolves seem upset at something.'
"`Maybe it's you,' says I, for I did not like the airs as he give
`isself. He didn't get angry, as I `oped he would, but he smiled a kind
of insolent smile, with a mouth full of white, sharp teeth. `Oh no,
they wouldn't like me,' `e says.
" `Ow yes, they would,' says I, a-imitatin'of him.`They always
like a bone or two to clean their teeth on about tea time, which you
`as a bagful.'
"Well, it was a odd thing, but when the animiles see us a-talkin'
they lay down, and when I went over to Bersicker he let me stroke his
ears same as ever. That there man kem over, and blessed but if he didn't
put in his hand and stroke the old wolf's ears too!
" `Tyke care,' says I. `Bersicker is quick.'
" `Never mind,' he says. I'm used to `em!'
" `Are you in the business yourself?" I says, tyking off my
`at, for a man what trades in wolves, anceterer, is a good friend to
keepers.
" `Nom' says he, `not exactly in the business, but I `ave made
pets of several.' and with that he lifts his `at as perlite as a lord,
and walks away. Old Bersicker kep' a-lookin' arter `im till `e was out
of sight, and then went and lay down in a corner and wouldn't come hout
the `ole hevening. Well, larst night, so soon as the moon was hup, the
wolves here all began a-`owling. There warn't nothing for them to `owl
at. There warn't no one near, except some one that was evidently a-callin'
a dog somewheres out back of the gardings in the Park road. Once or
twice I went out to see that all was right, and it was, and then the
`owling stopped. Just before twelve o'clock I just took a look round
afore turnin' in, an', bust me, but when I kem opposite to old Bersicker's
cage I see the rails broken and twisted about and the cage empty. And
that's all I know for certing."
"Did any one else see anything?"
"One of our gard`ners was a-comin' `ome about that time from a
`armony, when he sees a big gray dog comin' out through the garding
`edges. At least, so he says, but I don't give much for it myself, for
if he did `e never said a word about it to his missis when `e got `ome,
and it was only after the escape of the wolf was made known, and we
had been up all night a-huntin' of the Park for Bersicker, that he remembered
seein' anything. My own belief was that the `armony `ad got into his
`ead."
"Now, Mr. Bilder, can you account in any way for the escape of
the wolf?"
"Well, Sir," he said, with a suspicious sort of modesty, "I
think I can, but I don't know as `ow you'd be satisfied with the theory."
"Certainly I shall. If a man like you, who knows the animals from
experience, can't hazard a good guess at any rate, who is even to try?"
"well then, Sir, I accounts for it this way. It seems to me that
`ere wolf escaped--simply because he wanted to get out."
From the hearty way that both Thomas and his wife laughed at the joke
I could see that it had done service before, and that the whole explanation
was simply an elaborate sell. I couldn't cope in badinage with the worthy
Thomas, but I thought I knew a surer way to his heart, so I said, "Now,
Mr. Bilder, we'll consider that first half-sovereign worked off, and
this brother of his is waiting to be claimed when you've told me what
you think will happen."
"Right y`are, Sir," he said briskly. "Ye`ll excoose me,
I know, for a-chaffin' of ye, but the old woman her winked at me, which
was as much as telling me to go on."
"Well, I never!" said the old lady.
"My opinion is this. That `ere wolf is a`idin' of, somewheres.
The gard`ner wot didn't remember said he was a-gallopin' northward faster
than a horse could go, but I don't believe him, for, yer see, Sir, wolves
don't gallop no more nor dogs does, they not bein' built that way. Wolves
is fine things in a storybook, and I dessay when they gets in packs
and does be chivyin' somethin' that's more afeared than they is they
can make a devil of a noise and chop it up, whatever it is. But, Lor'
bless you, in real life a wolf is only a low creature, not half so clever
or bold as a good dog, and not half a quarter so much fight in `im.
This one ain't been used to fightin' or even to providin' for hisself,
and more like he's somewhere round the Park a'hidin' an' a'shiverin'
of, and if he thinks at all, wonderin' where he is to get his breakfast
from. Or maybe he's got down some area and is in a coal cellar. My eye,
won't some cook get a rum start when she sees his green eyes a-shinin'
at her out of the dark! If he can't get food he's bound to look for
it, and mayhap he may chance to light on a butcher's shop in time. If
he doesn't, and some nursemaid goes out walkin' or orf with a soldier,
leavin' of the hinfant in the perambulator-- well, then I shouldn't
be surprised if the census is one babby the less. That's all."
I was handing him the half-sovereign, when something came bobbing up
against the window, and Mr. Bilder's face doubled its natural length
with surprise.
"God bless me!" he said. "If there ain't old Bersicker
come back by `isself!"
He went to the door and opened it, a most unnecessary proceeding it
seemed to me. I have always thought that a wild animal never looks so
well as when some obstacle of pronounced durability is between us. A
personal experience has intensified rather than diminished that idea.
After all, however, there is nothing like custom, for neither Bilder
nor his wife thought any more of the wolf than I should of a dog. The
animal itself was a peaceful and well-behaved as that father of all
picture-wolves, Red Riding Hood's quondam friend, whilst moving her
confidence in masquerade.
The whole scene was a unutterable mixture of comedy and pathos. The
wicked wolf that for a half a day had paralyzed London and set all the
children in town shivering in their shoes, was there in a sort of penitent
mood, and was received and petted like a sort of vulpine prodigal son.
Old Bilder examined him all over with most tender solicitude, and when
he had finished with his penitent said,
"There, I knew the poor old chap would get into some kind of trouble.
Didn't I say it all along? Here's his head all cut and full of broken
glass. `E's been a-gettin' over some bloomin' wall or other. It's a
shyme that people are allowed to top their walls with broken bottles.
This `ere's what comes of it. Come along, Bersicker."
He took the wolf and locked him up in a cage, with a piece of meat that
satisfied, in quantity at any rate, the elementary conditions of the
fatted calf, and went off to report.
I came off too, to report the only exclusive information that is given
today regarding the strange escapade at the Zoo.
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY
17 September.--I was engaged after dinner in my study posting up my
books, which, through press of other work and the many visits to Lucy,
had fallen sadly into arrear. Suddenly the door was burst open, and
in rushed my patient, with his face distorted with passion. I was thunderstruck,
for such a thing as a patient getting of his own accord into the Superintendent's
study is almost unknown.
Without an instant's notice he made straight at me. He had a dinner
knife in his hand, and as I saw he was dangerous, I tried to keep the
table between us. He was too quick and too strong for me, however, for
before I could get my balance he had struck at me and cut my left wrist
rather severely.
Before he could strike again, however, I got in my right hand and he
was sprawling on his back on the floor. My wrist bled freely, and quite
a little pool trickled on to the carpet. I saw that my friend was not
intent on further effort, and occupied myself binding up my wrist, keeping
a wary eye on the prostrate figure all the time. When the attendants
rushed in, and we turned our attention to him, his employment positively
sickened me. He was lying on his belly on the floor licking up, like
a dog, the blood which had fallen from my wounded wrist. He was easily
secured, and to my surprise, went with the attendants quite placidly,
simply repeating over and over again, "The blood is the life! The
blood is the life!"
I cannot afford to lose blood just at present. I have lost too much
of late for my physical good, and then the prolonged strain of Lucy's
illness and its horrible phases is telling on me. I am over excited
and weary, and I need rest, rest, rest. Happily Van Helsing has not
summoned me, so I need not forego my sleep. Tonight I could not well
do without it.
TELEGRAM, VAN HELSING, ANTWERP, TO SEWARD, CARFAX
(Sent to Carfax, Sussex, as no county given, delivered late by twenty-two
hours.)
17 September.--Do not fail to be at Hilllingham tonight. If not watching
all the time, frequently visit and see that flowers are as placed, very
important, do not fail. Shall be with you as soon as possible after
arrival.
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY
18 September.--Just off train to London. The arrival of Van Helsing's
telegram filled me with dismay. A whole night lost, and I know by bitter
experience what may happen in a night. Of course it is possible that
all may be well, but what may have happened? Surely there is some horrible
doom hanging over us that every possible accident should thwart us in
all we try to do. I shall take this cylinder with me, and then I can
complete my entry on Lucy's phonograph.
MEMORANDUM LEFT BY LUCY WESTENRA
17 September, Night.--I write this and leave it to be seen, so that
no one may by any chance get into trouble through me. This is an exact
record of what took place tonight. I feel I am dying of weakness, and
have barely strength to write, but it must be done if I die in the doing.
I went to bed as usual, taking care that the flowers were placed as
Dr. Van Helsing directed, and soon fell asleep.
I was waked by the flapping at the window, which had begun after that
sleep-walking on the cliff at Whitby when Mina saved me, and which now
I know so well. I was not afraid, but I did wish that Dr. Seward was
in the next room, as Dr. Van Helsing said he would be, so that I might
have called him. I tried to sleep, but I could not. Then there came
to me the old fear of sleep, and I determined to keep awake. Perversely
sleep would try to come then when I did not want it. So, as I feared
to be alone, I opened my door and called out. "Is there anybody
there?" There was no answer. I was afraid to wake mother, and so
closed my door again. Then outside in the shrubbery I heard a sort of
howl like a dog's, but more fierce and deeper. I went to the window
and looked out, but could see nothing, except a big bat, which had evidently
been buffeting its wings against the window. So I went back to bed again,
but determined not to go to sleep. Presently the door opened, and mother
looked in. Seeing by my moving that I was not asleep, she came in and
sat by me. She said to me even more sweetly and softly than her wont,
"I was uneasy about you, darling, and came in to see that you were
all right."
I feared she might catch cold sitting there, and asked her to come in
and sleep with me, so she came into bed, and lay down beside me. She
did not take off her dressing gown, for she said she would only stay
a while and then go back to her own bed. As she lay there in my arms,
and I in hers the flapping and buffeting came to the window again. She
was startled and a little frightened, and cried out, "What is that?"
I tried to pacify her, and at last succeeded, and she lay quiet. But
I could hear her poor dear heart still beating terribly. After a while
there was the howl again out in the shrubbery, and shortly after there
was a crash at the window, and a lot of broken glass was hurled on the
floor. The window blind blew back with the wind that rushed in, and
in the aperture of the broken panes there was the head of a great, gaunt
gray wolf.
Mother cried out in a fright, and struggled up into a sitting posture,
and clutched wildly at anything that would help her. Amongst other things,
she clutched the wreath of flowers that Dr. Van Helsing insisted on
my wearing round my neck, and tore it away from me. For a second or
two she sat up, pointing at the wolf, and there was a strange and horrible
gurgling in her throat. Then she fell over, as if struck with lightning,
and her head hit my forehead and made me dizzy for a moment or two.
The room and all round seemed to spin round. I kept my eyes fixed on
the window, but the wolf drew his head back, and a whole myriad of little
specks seems to come blowing in through the broken window, and wheeling
and circling round like the pillar of dust that travellers describe
when there is a simoon in the desert. I tried to stir, but there was
some spell upon me, and dear Mother's poor body, which seemed to grow
cold already, for her dear heart had ceased to beat, weighed me down,
and I remembered no more for a while.
The time did not seem long, but very, very awful, till I recovered consciousness
again. Somewhere near, a passing bell was tolling. The dogs all round
the neighborhood were howling, and in our shrubbery, seemingly just
outside, a nightingale was singing. I was dazed and stupid with pain
and terror and weakness, but the sound of the nightingale seemed like
the voice of my dead mother come back to comfort me. The sounds seemed
to have awakened the maids, too, for I could hear their bare feet pattering
outside my door. I called to them, and they came in, and when they saw
what had happened, and what it was that lay over me on the bed, they
screamed out. The wind rushed in through the broken window, and the
door slammed to. They lifted off the body of my dear mother, and laid
her, covered up with a sheet, on the bed after I had got up. They were
all so frightened and nervous that I directed them to go to the dining
room and each have a glass of wine. The door flew open for an instant
and closed again. The maids shrieked, and then went in a body to the
dining room, and I laid what flowers I had on my dear mother's breast.
When they were there I remembered what Dr. Van Helsing had told me,
but I didn't like to remove them, and besides, I would have some of
the servants to sit up with me now. I was surprised that the maids did
not come back. I called them, but got no answer, so I went to the dining
room to look for them.
My heart sank when I saw what had happened. They all four lay helpless
on the floor, breathing heavily. The decanter of sherry was on the table
half full, but there was a queer, acrid smell about. I was suspicious,
and examined the decanter. It smelt of laudanum, and looking on the
sideboard, I found that the bottle which Mother's doctor uses for her--
oh! did use--was empty. What am I to do? What am I to do? I am back
in the room with Mother. I cannot leave her, and I am alone, save for
the sleeping servants, whom some one has drugged. Alone with the dead!
I dare not go out, for I can hear the low howl of the wolf through the
broken window.
The air seems full of specks, floating and circling in the draught from
the window, and the lights burn blue and dim. What am I to do? God shield
me from harm this night! I shall hide this paper in my breast, where
they shall find it when they come to lay me out. My dear mother gone!
It is time that I go too. Goodbye, dear Arthur, if I should not survive
this night. God keep you, dear, and God help me!
CHAPTER 12
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY
18 September.--I drove at once to Hillingham and arrived early. Keeping
my cab at the gate, I went up the avenue alone. I knocked gently and
rang as quietly as possible, for I feared to disturb Lucy or her mother,
and hoped to only bring a servant to the door. After a while, finding
no response, I knocked and rang again, still no answer. I cursed the
laziness of the servants that they should lie abed at such an hour,
for it was now ten o'clock, and so rang and knocked again, but more
impatiently, but still without response. Hitherto I had blamed only
the servants, but now a terrible fear began to assail me. Was this desolation
but another link in the chain of doom which seemed drawing tight round
us? Was it indeed a house of death to which I had come, too late? I
know that minutes, even seconds of delay, might mean hours of danger
to Lucy, if she had had again one of those frightful relapses, and I
went round the house to try if I could find by chance an entry anywhere.
I could find no means of ingress. Every window and door was fastened
and locked, and I returned baffled to the porch. As I did so, I heard
the rapid pit-pat of a swiftly driven horse's feet. They stopped at
the gate, and a few seconds later I met Van Helsing running up the avenue.
When he saw me, he gasped out, "Then it was you, and just arrived.
How is she? Are we too late? Did you not get my telegram?"
I answered as quickly and coherently as I could that I had only got
his telegram early in the morning, and had not a minute in coming here,
and that I could not make any one in the house hear me. He paused and
raised his hat as he said solemnly, "Then I fear we are too late.
God's will be done!"
With his usual recuperative energy, he went on, "Come. If there
be no way open to get in, we must make one. Time is all in all to us
now."
We went round to the back of the house, where there was a kitchen window.
The Professor took a small surgical saw from his case, and handing it
to me, pointed to the iron bars which guarded the window. I attacked
them at once and had very soon cut through three of them. Then with
a long, thin knife we pushed back the fastening of the sashes and opened
the window. I helped the Professor in, and followed him. There was no
one in the kitchen or in the servants' rooms, which were close at hand.
We tried all the rooms as we went along, and in the dining room, dimly
lit by rays of light through the shutters, found four servant women
lying on the floor. There was no need to think them dead, for their
stertorous breathing and the acrid smell of laudanum in the room left
no doubt as to their condition.
Van Helsing and I looked at each other, and as we moved away he said,
"We can attend to them later."Then we ascended to Lucy's room.
For an instant or two we paused at the door to listen, but there was
no sound that we could hear. With white faces and trembling hands, we
opened the door gently, and entered the room.
How shall I describe what we saw? On the bed lay two women, Lucy and
her mother. The latter lay farthest in, and she was covered with a white
sheet, the edge of which had been blown back by the drought through
the broken window, showing the drawn, white, face, with a look of terror
fixed upon it. By her side lay Lucy, with face white and still more
drawn. The flowers which had been round her neck we found upon her mother's
bosom, and her throat was bare, showing the two little wounds which
we had noticed before, but looking horribly white and mangled. Without
a word the Professor bent over the bed, his head almost touching poor
Lucy's breast. Then he gave a quick turn of his head, as of one who
listens, and leaping to his feet, he cried out to me, "It is not
yet too late! Quick! Quick! Bring the brandy!"
I flew downstairs and returned with it, taking care to smell and taste
it, lest it, too, were drugged like the decanter of sherry which I found
on the table. The maids were still breathing, but more restlessly, and
I fancied that the narcotic was wearing off. I did not stay to make
sure, but returned to Van Helsing. He rubbed the brandy, as on another
occasion, on her lips and gums and on her wrists and the palms of her
hands. He said to me, "I can do this, all that can be at the present.
You go wake those maids. Flick them in the face with a wet towel, and
flick them hard. Make them get heat and fire and a warm bath. This poor
soul is nearly as cold as that beside her. She will need be heated before
we can do anything more."
I went at once, and found little difficulty in waking three of the women.
The fourth was only a young girl, and the drug had evidently affected
her more strongly so I lifted her on the sofa and let her sleep.
The others were dazed at first, but as remembrance came back to them
they cried and sobbed in a hysterical manner. I was stern with them,
however, and would not let them talk. I told them that one life was
bad enough to lose, and if they delayed they would sacrifice Miss Lucy.
So, sobbing and crying they went about their way, half clad as they
were, and prepared fire and water. Fortunately, the kitchen and boiler
fires were still alive, and there was no lack of hot water. We got a
bath and carried Lucy out as she was and placed her in it. Whilst we
were busy chafing her limbs there was a knock at the hall door. One
of the maids ran off, hurried on some more clothes, and opened it. Then
she returned and whispered to us that there was a gentleman who had
come with a message from Mr. Holmwood. I bade her simply tell him that
he must wait, for we could see no one now. She went away with the message,
and, engrossed with our work, I clean forgot all about him.
I never saw in all my experience the Professor work in such deadly earnest.
I knew, as he knew, that it was a stand-up fight with death, and in
a pause told him so. He answered me in a way that I did not understand,
but with the sternest look that his face could wear.
"If that were all, I would stop here where we are now, and let
her fade away into peace, for I see no light in life over her horizon."
He went on with his work with, if possible, renewed and more frenzied
vigour.
Presently we both began to be conscious that the heat was beginning
to be of some effect. Lucy's heart beat a trifle more audibly to the
stethoscope, and her lungs had a perceptible movement. Van Helsing's
face almost beamed, and as we lifted her from the bath and rolled her
in a hot sheet to dry her he said to me, "The first gain is ours!
Check to the King!"
We took Lucy into another room, which had by now been prepared, and
laid her in bed and forced a few drops of brandy down her throat. I
noticed that Van Helsing tied a soft silk handkerchief round her throat.
She was still unconscious, and was quite as bad as, if not worse than,
we had ever seen her.
Van Helsing called in one of the women, and told her to stay with her
and not to take her eyes off her till we returned, and then beckoned
me out of the room.
"We must consult as to what is to be done," he said as we
descended the stairs. In the hall he opened the dining room door, and
we passed in, he closing the door carefully behind him. The shutters
had been opened, but the blinds were already down, with that obedience
to the etiquette of death which the British woman of the lower classes
always rigidly observes. The room was, therefore, dimly dark. It was,
however, light enough for our purposes. Van Helsing's sternness was
somewhat relieved by a look of perplexity. He was evidently torturing
his mind about something, so I waited for an instant, and he spoke.
"What are we to do now? Where are we to turn for help? We must
have another transfusion of blood, and that soon, or that poor girl's
life won't be worth an hour's purchase. You are exhausted already. I
am exhausted too. I fear to trust those women, even if they would have
courage to submit. What are we to do for some one who will open his
veins for her?"
"What's the matter with me, anyhow?"
The voice came from the sofa across the room, and its tones brought
relief and joy to my heart, for they were those of Quincey Morris.
Van Helsing started angrily at the first sound, but his face softened
and a glad look came into his eyes as I cried out, "Quincey Morris!"
and rushed towards him with outstretched hands.
"What brought you her?" I cried as our hands met.
"I guess Art is the cause."
He handed me a telegram.--`Have not heard from Seward for three days,
and am terribly anxious. Cannot leave. Father still in same condition.
Send me word how Lucy is. Do not delay.--Holmwood.'
"I think I came just in the nick of time. You know you have only
to tell me what to do."
Van Helsing strode forward, and took his hand, looking him straight
in the eyes as he said, "A brave man's blood is the best thing
on this earth when a woman is in trouble. You're a man and no mistake.
Well, the devil may work against us for all he's worth, but God sends
us men when we want them."
Once again we went through that ghastly operation. I have not the heart
to go through with the details. Lucy had got a terrible shock and it
told on her more than before, for though plenty of blood went into her
veins, her body did not respond to the treatment as well as on the other
occasions. Her struggle back into life was something frightful to see
and hear. However, the action of both heart and lungs improved, and
Van Helsing made a sub-cutaneous injection of morphia, as before, and
with good effect. Her faint became a profound slumber. The Professor
watched whilst I went downstairs with Quincey Morris, and sent one of
the maids to pay off one of the cabmen who were waiting.
I left Quincey lying down after having a glass of wine, and told the
cook to get ready a good breakfast. Then a thought struck me, and I
went back to the room where Lucy now was. When I came softly in, I found
Van Helsing with a sheet or two of note paper in his hand. He had evidently
read it, and was thinking it over as he sat with his hand to his brow.
There was a look of grim satisfaction in his face, as of one who has
had a doubt solved. He handed me the paper saying only, "It dropped
from Lucy's breast when we carried her to the bath."
When I had read it, I stook looking at the Professor, and after a pause
asked him, "In God's name, what does it all mean? Was she, or is
she, mad, or what sort of horrible danger is it?" I was so bewildered
that I did not know what to say more. Van Helsing put out his hand and
took the paper, saying,
"Do not trouble about it now. Forget if for the present. You shall
know and understand it all in good time, but it will be later. And now
what is it that you came to me to say?" This brought me back to
fact, and I was all myself again.
"I came to speak about the certificate of death. If we do not act
properly and wisely, there may be an inquest, and that paper would have
to be produced. I am in hopes that we need have no inquest, for if we
had it would surely kill poor Lucy, if nothing else did. I know, and
you know, and the other doctor who attended her knows, that Mrs. Westenra
had disease of the heart, and we can certify that she died of it. Let
us fill up the certificate at once, and I shall take it myself to the
registrar and go on to the undertaker."
"Good, oh my friend John! Well thought of! Truly Miss Lucy, if
she be sad in the foes that beset her, is at least happy in the friends
thatlove her. One, two, three, all open their veins for her, besides
one old man. Ah, yes, I know, friend John. I am not blind! I love you
all the more for it! Now go."
In the hall I met Quincey Morris, with a telegram for Arthur telling
him that Mrs. Westenra was dead, that Lucy also had been ill, but was
now going on better, and that Van Helsing and I were with her. I told
him where I was going, and he hurried me out, but as I was going said,
"When you come back, Jack, may I have two words with you all to
ourselves?" I nodded in reply and went out. I found no difficulty
about the registration, and arranged with the local undertaker to come
up in the evening to measure for the coffin and to make arrangements.
When I got back Quincey was waiting for me. I told him I would see him
as soon as I knew about Lucy, and went up to her room. She was still
sleeping, and the Professor seemingly had not moved from his seat at
her side. From his putting his finger to his lips, I gathered that he
expected her to wake before long and was afraid of fore-stalling nature.
So I went down to Quincey and took him into the breakfast room, where
the blinds were not drawn down, and which was a little more cheerful,
or rather less cheerless, than the other rooms.
When we were alone, he said to me, "Jack Seward, I don't want to
shove myself in anywhere where I've no right to be, but this is no ordinary
case. You know I loved that girl and wanted to marry her, but although
that's all past and gone, I can't help feeling anxious about her all
the same. What is it that's wrong with her? The Dutchman, and a fine
old fellow is is, I can see that, said that time you two came into the
room, that you must have another transfusion of blood, and that both
you and he were exhausted. Now I know well that you medical men speak
in camera, and that a man must not expect to know what they consult
about in private. But this is no common matter, and whatever it is,
I have done my part. Is not that so?"
"That's so," I said, and he went on.
"I take it that both you and Van Helsing had done already what
I did today. Is not that so?"
"That's so."
"And I guess Art was in it too. When I saw him four days ago down
at his own place he looked queer. I have not seen anything pulled down
so quick since I was on the Pampas and had a mare that I was fond of
go to grass all in a night. One of those big bats that they call vampires
had got at her in the night, and what with his gorge and the vein left
open, there wasn't enough blood in her to let her stand up, and I had
to put a bullet through her as she lay. Jack, if you may tell me without
betraying confidence, Arthur was the first, is not that so?"
As he spoke the poor fellow looked terribly anxious. He was in a torture
of suspense regarding the woman he loved, and his utter ignorance of
the terrible mystery which seemed to surround her intensified his pain.
His very heart was bleeding, and it took all the manhood of him, and
there was a royal lot of it, too, to keep him from breaking down. I
paused before answering, for I felt that I must not betray anything
which the Professor wished kept secret, but already he knew so much,
and guessed so much, that there could be no reason for not answering,
so I answered in the same phrase.
"That's so."
"And how long has this been going on?"
"About ten days."
"Ten days! Then I guess, Jack Seward, that that poor pretty creature
that we all love has had put into her veins within that time the blood
of four strong men. Man alive, her whole body wouldn't hold it."
Then coming close to me, he spoke in a fierce half-whisper. "What
took it out?"
I shook my head. "That," I said, "is the crux. Van Helsing
is simply frantic about it, and I am at my wits' end. I can't even hazard
a guess. There has been a series of little circumstances which have
thrown out all our calculations as to Lucy being properly watched. But
these shall not occur again. Here we stay until all be well, or ill."
Quincey held out his hand. "Count me in," he said. "You
and the Dutchman will tell me what to do, and I'll do it."
When she woke late in the afternoon, Lucy's first movement was to feel
in her breast, and to my surprise, produced the paper which Van Helsing
had given me to read. The careful Professor had replaced it where it
had come from, lest on waking she should be alarmed. Her eyes then lit
on Van Helsing and on me too, and gladdened. Then she looked round the
room, and seeing where she was, shuddered. She gave a loud cry, and
put her poor thin hands before her pale face.
We both understood what was meant, that she had realized to the full
her mother's death. So we tried what we could to comfort her. Doubtless
sympathy eased her somewhat, but she was very low in thought and spirit,
and wept silently and weakly for a long time. We told her that either
or both of us would now remain with her all the time, and that seemed
to comfort her. Towards dusk she fell into a doze. Here a very odd thing
occurred. Whilst still asleep she took the paper from her breast and
tore it in two. Van Helsing stepped over and took the pieces from her.
All the same, however, she went on with the action of tearing, as though
the material were still in her hands. Finally she lifted her hands and
opened them as though scattering the fragments. Van Helsing seemed surprised,
and his brows gathered as if in thought, but he said nothing.
19 September.--All last night she slept fitfully, being always afraid
to sleep, and something weaker when she woke from it. The Professor
and I took in turns to watch, and we never left her for a moment unattended.
Quincey Morris said nothing about his intention, but I knew that all
night long he patrolled round and round the house.
When the day came, its searching light showed the ravages in poor Lucy's
strength. She was hardly able to turn her head, and the little nourishment
which she could take seemed to do her no good. At times she slept, and
both Van Helsing and I noticed the difference in her, between sleeping
and waking. Whilst asleep she looked stronger, although more haggard,
and her breathing was softer. Her open mouth showed the pale gums drawn
back from the teeth,
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