which looked positively longer and sharper than usual.
When she woke the softness of her eyes evidently changed the expression,
for she looked her own self, although a dying one. In the afternoon
she asked for Arthur, and we telegraphed for him. Quincey went off to
meet him at the station.
When he arrived it was nearly six o'clock, and the sun was setting full
and warm, and the red light streamed in through the window and gave
more color to the pale cheeks. When he saw her, Arthur was simply choking
with emotion, and none of us could speak. In the hours that had passed,
the fits of sleep, or the comatose condition that passed for it, had
grown more frequent, so that the pauses when conversation was possible
were shortened. Arthur's presence, however, seemed to act as a stimulant.
She rallied a little, and spoke to him more brightly than she had done
since we arrived. He too pulled himself together, and spoke as cheerily
as he could, so that the best was made of everything.
It is now nearly one o'clock, and he and Van Helsing are sitting with
her. I am to relieve them in a quarter of an hour, and I am entering
this on Lucy's phonograph. Until six o'clock they are to try to rest.
I fear that tomorrow will end our watching, for the shock has been too
great. The poor child cannot rally. God help us all.
LETTER MINA HARKER TO LUCY WESTENRA
(Unopened by her)
17 September
My dearest Lucy,
"It seems an age since I heard from you, or indeed since I wrote.
You will pardon me, I know, for all my faults when you have read all
my budget of news. Well, I got my husband back all right. When we arrived
at Exeter there was a carriage waiting for us, and in it, though he
had an attack of gout, Mr. Hawkins. He took us to his house, where there
were rooms for us all nice and comfortable, and we dined together. After
dinner Mr. Hawkins said,
" `My dears, I want to drink your health and prosperity, and may
every blessing attend you both. I know you both from children, and have,
with love and pride, seen you grow up. Now I want you to make your home
here with me. I have left to me neither chick nor child. All are gone,
and in my will I have left you everything.' I cried, Lucy dear, as Jonathan
and the old man clasped hands. Our evening was a very, very happy one.
"So here we are, installed in this beautiful old house, and from
both my bedroom and the drawing room I can see the great elms of the
cathedral close, with their great black stems standing out against the
old yellow stone of the cathedral, and I can hear the rooks overhead
cawing and cawing and chattering and chattering and gossiping all day,
after the manner of rooks--and humans. I am busy, I need not tell you,
arranging things and housekeeping. Jonathan and Mr. Hawkins are busy
all day, for now that Jonathan is a partner, Mr. Hawkins wants to tell
him all about the clients.
"How is your dear mother getting on? I wish I could run up to town
for a day or two to see you, dear, but I, dare not go yet, with so much
on my shoulders, and Jonathan wants looking after still. He is beginning
to put some flesh on his bones again, but he was terribly weakened by
the long illness. Even now he sometimes starts out of his sleep in a
sudden way and awakes all trembling until I can coax him back to his
usual placidity. However, thank God, these occasions grow less frequent
as the days go on, and they will in time pass away altogether, I trust.
And now I have told you my news, let me ask yours. When are you to be
married, and where, and who is to perform the ceremony, and what are
you to wear, and is it to be a public or private wedding? Tell me all
about it, dear, tell me all about everything, for there is nothing which
interests you which will not be dear to me. Jonathan asks me to send
his `respectful duty', but I do not think that is good enough from the
junior partner of the important firm Hawkins & Harker. And so, as
you love me, and he loves me, and I love you with all the moods and
tenses of the verb, I send you simply his `love' instead. Goodbye, my
dearest Lucy, and blessings on you." Yours, Mina Harker
REPORT FROM PATRICK HENNESSEY, MD, MRCSLK, QCPI, ETC, ETC, TO JOHN
SEWARD, MD
20 September
My dear Sir:
"In accordance with your wishes, I enclose report of the conditions
of everything left in my charge. With regard to patient, Renfield, there
is more to say. He has had another outbreak, which might have had a
dreadful ending, but which, as it fortunately happened, was unattended
with any unhappy results. This afternoon a carrier's cart with two men
made a call at the empty house whose grounds abut on ours, the house
to which, you will remember, the patient twice ran away. The men stopped
at our gate to ask the porter their way, as they were strangers.
"I was myself looking out of the study window, having a smoke after
dinner, and saw one of them come up to the house. As he passed the window
of Renfield's room, the patient began to rate him from within, and called
him all the foul names he could lay his tongue to. The man, who seemed
a decent fellow enough, contented himself by telling him to `shut up
for a foul-mouthed beggar', whereon our man accused him of robbing him
and wanting to murder him and said that he would hinder him if he were
to swing for it. I opened the window and signed to the man not to notice,
so he contented himself after looking the place over and making up his
mind as to what kind of place he had got to by saying, `Lor' bless yer,
sir, I wouldn't mind what was said to me in a bloomin' madhouse. I pity
ye and the guv'nor for havin' to live in the house with a wild beast
like that.'
"Then he asked his way civilly enough, and I told him where the
gate of the empty house was. He went away followed by threats and curses
and revilings from our man. I went down to see if I could make out any
cause for his anger, since he is usually such a well-behaved man, and
except his violent fits nothing of the kind had ever occurred. I found
him, to my astonishment, quite composed and most genial in his manner.
I tried to get him to talk of the incident, but he blandly asked me
questions as to what I meant, and led me to believe that he was completely
oblivious of the affair. It was, I am sorry to say, however, only another
instance of his cunning, for within half an hour I heard of him again.
This time he had broken out through the window of his room, and was
running down the avenue. I called to the attendants to follow me, and
ran after him, for I feared he was intent on some mischief. My fear
was justified when I saw the same cart which had passed before coming
down the road, having on it some great wooden boxes. The men were wiping
their foreheads, and were flushed in the face, as if with violent exercise.
Before I could get up to him, the patient rushed at them, and pulling
one of them off the cart, began to knock his head against the ground.
If I had not seized him just at the moment, I believe he would have
killed the man there and then. The other fellow jumped down and struck
him over the head with the butt end of his heavy whip. It was a horrible
blow, but he did not seem to mind it, but seized him also, and struggled
with the three of us, pulling us to and fro as if we were kittens. You
know I am no lightweight, and the others were both burly men. At first
he was silent in his fighting, but as we began to master him, and the
attendants were putting a strait waistcoat on him, he began to shout,
`I'll frustrate them! They shan't rob me! They shan't murder me by inches!
I'll fight for my Lord and Master!'and all sorts of similar incoherent
ravings. It was with very considerable difficulty that they got him
back to the house and put him in the padded room. One of the attendants,
Hardy, had a finger broken. However, I set it all right, and he is going
on well.
"The two carriers were at first loud in their threats of actions
for damages, and promised to rain all the penalties of the law on us.
Their threats were, however, mingled with some sort of indirect apology
for the defeat of the two of them by a feeble madman. They said that
if it had not been for the way their strength had been spent in carrying
and raising the heavy boxes to the cart they would have made short work
of him. They gave as another reason for their defeat the extraordinary
state of drouth to which they had been reduced by the dusty nature of
their occupation and the reprehensible distance from the scene of their
labors of any place of public entertainment. I quite understood their
drift, and after a stiff glass of strong grog, or rather more of the
same, and with each a sovereign in hand, they made light of the attack,
and swore that they would encounter a worse madman any day for the pleasure
of meeting so `bloomin' good a bloke' as your correspondent. I took
their names and addresses, in case they might be needed. They are as
follows: Jack Smollet, of Dudding's Rents, King George's Road, Great
Walworth, and Thomas Snelling, Peter Farley's Row, Guide Court, Bethnal
Green. They are both in the employment of Harris & Sons, Moving
and Shipment Company, Orange Master's Yard, Soho.
"I shall report to you any matter of interest occurring here, and
shall wire you at once if there is anything of importance.
"Believe me, dear Sir,
"Yours faithfully,
"Patrick Hennessey."
LETTER, MINA HARKER TO LUCY WESTENRA (Unopened by her)
18 September
"My dearest Lucy,
"Such a sad blow has befallen us. Mr. Hawkins has died very suddenly.
Some may not think it so sad for us, but we had both come to so love
him that it really seems as though we had lost a father. I never knew
either father or mother, so that the dear old man's death is a real
blow to me. Jonathan is greatly distressed. It is not only that he feels
sorrow, deep sorrow, for the dear, good man who has befriended him all
his life, and now at the end has treated him like his own son and left
him a fortune which to people of our modest bringing up is wealth beyond
the dream of avarice, but Jonathan feels it on another account. He says
the amount of responsibility which it puts upon him makes him nervous.
He begins to doubt himself. I try to cheer him up, and my belief in
him helps him to have a belief in himself. But it is here that the grave
shock that he experienced tells upon him the most. Oh, it is too hard
that a sweet, simple, noble, strong nature such as his, a nature which
enabled him by our dear, good friend's aid to rise from clerk to master
in a few years, should be so injured that the very essence of its strength
is gone. Forgive me, dear, if I worry you with my troubles in the midst
of your own happiness, but Lucy dear, I must tell someone, for the strain
of keeping up a brave and cheerful appearance to Jonathan tries me,
and I have no one here that I can confide in. I dread coming up to London,
as we must do that day after tomorrow, for poor Mr. Hawkins left in
his will that he was to be buried in the grave with his father. As there
are no relations at all, Jonathan will have to be chief mourner. I shall
try to run over to see you, dearest, if only for a few minutes. Forgive
me for troubling you. With all blessings,
"Your loving
Mina Harker"
DR. SEWARD' DIARY
20 September.--Only resolution and habit can let me make an entry tonight.
I am too miserable, too low spirited, too sick of the world and all
in it, including life itself, that I would not care if I heard this
moment the flapping of the wings of the angel of death. And he has been
flapping those grim wings to some purpose of late, Lucy's mother and
Arthur's father, and now. . . Let me get on with my work.
I duly relieved Van Helsing in his watch over Lucy. We wanted Arthur
to go to rest also, but he refused at first. It was only when I told
him that we should want him to help us during the day, and that we must
not all break down for want of rest, lest Lucy should suffer, that he
agreed to go.
Van Helsing was very kind to him. "Come, my child," he said.
"Come with me. You are sick and weak, and have had much sorrow
and much mental pain, as well as that tax on your strength that we know
of. You must not be alone, for to be alone is to be full of fears and
alarms. Come to the drawing room, where there is a big fire, and there
are two sofas. You shall lie on one, and I on the other, and our sympathy
will be comfort to each other, even though we do not speak, and even
if we sleep."
Arthur went off with him, casting back a longing look on Lucy's face,
which lay in her pillow, almost whiter than the lawn. She lay quite
still, and I looked around the room to see that all was as it should
be. I could see that the Professor had carried out in this room, as
in the other, his purpose of using the garlic. The whole of the window
sashes reeked with it, and round Lucy's neck, over the silk handkerchief
which Van Helsing made her keep on, was a rough chaplet of the same
odorous flowers.
Lucy was breathing somewhat stertorously, and her face was at its worst,
for the open mouth showed the pale gums. Her teeth, in the dim, uncertain
light, seemed longer and sharper than they had been in the morning.
In particular, by some trick of the light, the canine teeth looked longer
and sharper than the rest.
I sat down beside her, and presently she moved uneasily. At the same
moment there came a sort of dull flapping or buffeting at the window.
I went over to it softly, and peeped out by the corner of the blind.
There was a full moonlight, and I could see that the noise was made
by a great bat, which wheeled around, doubtless attracted by the light,
although so dim, and every now and again struck the window with its
wings. When I came back to my seat, I found that Lucy had moved slightly,
and had torn away the garlic flowers from her throat. I replaced them
as well as I could, and sat watching her.
Presently she woke, and I gave her food, as Van Helsing had prescribed.
She took but a little, and that languidly. There did not seem to be
with her now the unconscious struggle for life and strength that had
hitherto so marked her illness. It struck me as curious that the moment
she became conscious she pressed the garlic flowers close to her. It
was certainly odd that whenever she got into that lethargic state, with
the stertorous breathing, she put the flowers from her, but that when
she waked she clutched them close, There was no possibility of making
amy mistake about this, for in the long hours that followed, she had
many spells of sleeping and waking and repeated both actions many times.
At six o'clock Van Helsing came to relieve me. Arthur had then fallen
into a doze, and he mercifully let him sleep on. When he saw Lucy's
face I could hear the sissing indraw of breath, and he said to me in
a sharp whisper."Draw up the blind. I want light!" Then he
bent down, and, with his face almost touching Lucy's, examined her carefully.
He removed the flowers and lifted the silk handkerchief from her throat.
As he did so he started back and I could hear his ejaculation, "Mein
Gott!" as it was smothered in his throat. I bent over and looked,
too, and as I noticed some queer chill came over me. The wounds on the
throat had absolutely disappeared.
For fully five minutes Van Helsing stood looking at her, with his face
at its sternest. Then he turned to me and said calmly, "She is
dying. It will not be long now. It will be much difference, mark me,
whether she dies conscious or in her sleep. Wake that poor boy, and
let him come and see the last. He trusts us, and we have promised him."
I went to the dining room and waked him. He was dazed for a moment,
but when he saw the sunlight streaming in through the edges of the shutters
he thought he was late, and expressed his fear. I assured him that Lucy
was still asleep, but told him as gently as i could that both Van Helsing
and I feared that the end was near. He covered his face with his hands,
and slid down on his knees by the sofa, where he remained, perhaps a
minute, with his head buried, praying, whilst his shoulders shook with
grief. I took him by the hand and raised him up. "Come," I
said, "my dear old fellow, summon all your fortitude. It will be
best and easiest for her."
When we came into Lucy's room I could see that Van Helsing had, with
his usual forethought, been putting matters straight and making everything
look as pleasing as possible. He had even brushed Lucy's hair, so that
it lay on the pillow in its usual sunny ripples. When we came into the
room she opened her eyes, and seeing him, whispered softly, "Arthur!
Oh, my love, I am so glad you have come!"
He was stooping to kiss her, when Van Helsing motioned him back. "No,"
he whispered, "not yet! Hold her hand, it will comfort her more."
So Arthur took her hand and knelt beside her, and she looked her best,
with all the soft lines matching the angelic beauty of her eyes. Then
gradually her eyes closed, and she sank to sleep. For a little bit her
breast heaved softly, and her breath came and went like a tired child's.
And then insensibly there came the strange change which I had noticed
in the night. Her breathing grew stertorous, the mouth opened, and the
pale gums, drawn back, made the teeth look longer and sharper than ever.
In a sort of sleep-waking, vague, unconscious way she opened her eyes,
which were now dull and hard at once, and said in a soft, voluptuous
voice, such as I had never heard from her lips, "Arthur! Oh, my
love, I am so glad you have come! Kiss me!"
Arthur bent eagerly over to kiss her, but at that instant Van Helsing,
who, like me, had been startled by her voice, swooped upon him, and
catching him by the neck with both hands, dragged him back with a fury
of strength which I never thought he could have possessed, and actually
hurled him almost across the room.
"Not on your life!" he said, "not for your living soul
and hers!" And he stood between them like a lion at bay.
Arthur was so taken aback that he did not for a moment know what to
do or say, and before any impulse of violence could seize him he realized
the place and the occasion, and stood silent, waiting.
I kept my eyes fixed on Lucy, as did Van Helsing, and we saw a spasm
as of rage flit like a shadow over her face. The sharp teeth clamped
together. Then her eyes closed, and she breathed heavily.
Very shortly after she opened her eyes in all their softness, and putting
out her poor, pale, thin hand, took Van Helsing's great brown one, drawing
it close to her, she kissed it. "My true friend," she said,
in a faint voice, but with untellable pathos, "My true friend,
and his! Oh, guard him, and give me peace!"
"I swear it!" he said solemnly, kneeling beside her and holding
up his hand, as one who registers an oath. Then he turned to Arthur,
and said to him, "Come, my child, take her hand in yours, and kiss
her on the forehead, and only once."
Their eyes met instead of their lips, and so they parted. Lucy's eyes
closed, and Van Helsing, who had been watching closely, took Arthur's
arm, and drew him away.
And then Lucy's breathing became stertorous again, and all at once it
ceased.
"It is all over," said Van Helsing. "She is dead!"
I took Arthur by the arm, and led him away to the drawing room, where
he sat down, and covered his face with his hands, sobbing in a way that
nearly broke me down to see.
I went back to the room, and found Van Helsing looking at poor Lucy,
and his face was sterner than eve. Some change had come over her body.
Death had given back part of her beauty, for her brow and cheeks had
recovered some of their flowing lines. Even the lips had lost their
deadly pallor. It was as if the blood, no longer needed for the working
of the heart, had gone to make the harshness of death as little rude
as might be.
"We thought her dying whilst she slept, And sleeping when she died."
I stood beside Van Helsing, and said, "Ah well, poor girl, there
is peace for her at last. It is the end!"
He turned to me, and said with grave solemnity, "Not so, alas!
Not so. It is only the beginning!"
When I asked him what he meant, he only shook his head and answered,
"We can do nothing as yet. Wait and see."
CHAPTER 13
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY--cont.
The funeral was arranged for the next succeeding day, so that Lucy and
her mother might be buried together. I attended to all the ghastly formalities,
and the urbane undertaker proved that his staff was afflicted, or blessed,
with something of his own obsequious suavity. Even the woman who performed
the last offices for the dead remarked to me, in a confidential, brother-professional
way, when she had come out from the death chamber,
"She makes a very beautiful corpse, sir. It's quite a privilege
to attend on her. It's not too much to say that she will do credit to
our establishment!"
I noticed that Van Helsing never kept far away. This was possible from
the disordered state of things in the household. There were no relatives
at hand, and as Arthur had to be back the next day to attend at his
father's funeral, we were unable to notify any one who should have been
bidden. Under the circumstances, Van Helsing and I took it upon ourselves
to examine papers, etc. He insisted upon looking over Lucy's papers
himself. I asked him why, for I feared that he, being a foreigner, might
not be quite aware of English legal requirements, and so might in ignorance
make some unnecessary trouble.
He answered me, "I know, I know. You forget that I am a lawyer
as well as a doctor. But this is not altogether for the law. You knew
that, when you avoided the coroner. I have more than him to avoid. There
may be papers more, such as this."
As he spoke he took from his pocket book the memorandum which had been
in Lucy's breast, and which she had torn in her sleep.
"When you find anything of the solicitor who is for the late Mrs.
Westenra, seal all her papers, and write him tonight. For me, I watch
here in the room and in Miss Lucy's old room all night, and I myself
search for what may be. It is not well that her very thoughts go into
the hands of strangers."
I went on with my part of the work, and in another half hour had found
the name and address of Mrs. Westenra's solicitor and had written to
him. All the poor lady's papers were in order. Explicit directions regarding
the place of burial were given. I had hardly sealed the letter, when,
to my surprise, Van Helsing walked into the room, saying,
"Can I help you friend John? I am free, and if I may, my service
is to you."
"Have you got what you looked for?" I asked.
To which he replied, "I did not look for any specific thing. I
only hoped to find, and find I have, all that there was, only some letters
and a few memoranda, and a diary new begun. But I have them here, and
we shall for the present say nothing of them. I shall see that poor
lad tomorrow evening, and, with his sanction, I shall use some."
When we had finished the work in hand, he said to me, "And now,
friend John, I think we may to bed. We want sleep, both you and I, and
rest to recuperate. Tomorrow we shall have much to do, but for the tonight
there is no need of us. Alas!"
Before turning in we went to look at poor Lucy. The undertaker had certainly
done his work well, for the room was turned into a small chapelle ardente.
There was a wilderness of beautiful white flowers, and death was made
as little repulsive as might be. The end of the winding sheet was laid
over the face. When the Professor bent over and turned it gently back,
we both started at the beauty before us. The tall wax candles showing
a sufficient light to note it well. All Lucy's loveliness had come back
to her in death, and the hours that had passed, instead of leaving traces
of `decay's effacing fingers', had but restored the beauty of life,
till positively I could not believe my eyes that I was looking at a
corpse.
The Professor looked sternly grave. He had not loved her as I had, and
there was no need for tears in his eyes. He said to me, "Remain
till I return," and left the room. He came back with a handful
of wild garlic from the box waiting in the hall, but which had not been
opened, and placed the flowers amongst the others on and around the
bed. Then he took from his neck, inside his collar, a little gold crucifix,
and placed it over the mouth. He restored the sheet to its place, and
we came away.
I was undressing in my own room, when, with a premonitory tap at the
door, he entered, and at once began to speak.
"Tomorrow I want you to bring me, before night, a set of post-mortem
knives."
"Must we make an autopsy?" I asked.
"Yes and no. I want to operate, but not what you think. Let me
tell you now, but not a word to another. I want to cut off her head
and take out her heart. Ah! You a surgeon, and so shocked! You, whom
I have seen with no tremble of hand or heart, do operations of life
and death that make the rest shudder. Oh, but I must not forget, my
dear friend John, that you loved her, and I have not forgotten it for
is I that shall operate, and you must not help. I would like to do it
tonight, but for Arthur I must not. He will be free after his father's
funeral tomorrow, and he will want to see her, to see it. Then, when
she is coffined ready for the next day, you and I shall come when all
sleep. We shall unscrew the coffin lid, and shall do our operation,
and then replace all, so that none know, save we alone."
"But why do it at all? The girl is dead. Why mutilate her poor
body without need? And if there is no necessity for a post-mortem and
nothing to gain by it, no good to her, to us, to science, to human knowledge,
why do it? Without such it is monstrous."
For answer he put his hand on my shoulder, and said, with infinite tenderness,
"Friend John, I pity your poor bleeding heart, and I love you the
more because it does so bleed. If I could, I would take on myself the
burden that you do bear. But there are things that you know not, but
that you shall know, and bless me for knowing, though they are not pleasant
things. John, my child, you have been my friend now many years, and
yet did you ever know me to do any without good cause? I may err, I
am but man, but I believe in all I do. Was it not for these causes that
you send for me when the great trouble came? Yes! Were you not amazed,
nay horrified, when I would not let Arthur kiss his love, though she
was dying, and snatched him away by all my strength? Yes! And yet you
saw how she thanked me, with her so beautiful dying eyes, her voice,
too, so weak, and she kiss my rough old hand and bless me? Yes! And
did you not hear me swear promise to her, that so she closed her eyes
grateful? Yes!
"Well, I have good reason now for all I want to do. You have for
many years trust me. You have believe me weeks past, when there be things
so strange that you might have well doubt. Believe me yet a little,
friend John. If you trust me not, then I must tell what I think, and
that is not perhaps well. And if I work, as work I shall, no matter
trust or no trust, without my friend trust in me, I work with heavy
heart and feel, oh so lonely when I want all help and courage that may
be!" He paused a moment and went on solemnly, "Friend John,
there are strange and terrible days before us. Let us not be two, but
one, that so we work to a good end. Will you not have faith in me?"
I took his hand, and promised him. I held my door open as he went away,
and watched him go to his room and close the door. As I stood without
moving, I saw one of the maids pass silently along the passage, she
had her back to me, so did not see me, and go into the room where Lucy
lay. The sight touched me. Devotion is so rare, and we are so grateful
to those who show it unasked to those we love. Here was a poor girl
putting aside the terrors which she naturally had of death to go watch
alone by the bier of the mistress whom she loved, so that the poor clay
might not be lonely till laid to eternal rest.
I must have slept long and soundly, for it was broad daylight when Van
Helsing waked me by coming into my room. He came over to my bedside
and said, "You need not trouble about the knives. We shall not
do it."
"Why not?" I asked. For his solemnity of the night before
had greatly impressed me.
"Because," he said sternly, "it is too late, or too early.
See!" Here he held up the little golden crucifix.
"This was stolen in the night."
"How stolen, "I asked in wonder, "since you have it now?"
"Because I get it back from the worthless wretch who stole it,
from the woman who robbed the dead and the living. Her punishment will
surely come, but not through me. She knew not altogether what she did,
and thus unknowing, she only stole. Now we must wait." He went
away on the word, leaving me with a new mystery to think of, a new puzzle
to grapple with.
The forenoon was a dreary time, but at noon the solicitor came, Mr.
Marquand, of Wholeman, Sons, Marquand & Lidderdale. He was very
genial and very appreciative of what we had done, and took off our hands
all cares as to details. During lunch he told us that Mrs. Westenra
had for some time expected sudden death from her heart, and had put
her affairs in absolute order. He informed us that, with the exception
of a certain entailed property of Lucy's father which now, in default
of direct issue, went back to a distant branch of the family, the whole
estate, real and personal, was left absolutely to Arthur Holmwood. When
he had told us so much he went on,
"Frankly we did our best to prevent such a testamentary disposition,
and pointed out certain contingencies that might leave her daughter
either penniless or not so free as she should be to act regarding a
matrimonial alliance. Indeed, we pressed the matter so far that we almost
came into collision, for she asked us if we were or were not prepared
to carry out her wishes. Of course, we had then no alternative but to
accept. We were right in principle, and ninety-nine times out of a hundred
we should have proved, by the logic of events, the accuracy of our judgment.
"Frankly, however, I must admit that in this case any other form
of disposition would have rendered impossible the carrying out of her
wishes. For by her predeceasing her daughter the latter would have come
into possession of the property, and, even had she only survived her
mother by five minutes, her property would, in case there were no will,
and a will was a practical impossibility in such a case, have been treated
at her decease as under intestacy. In which case Lord Godalming, though
so dear a friend, would have had no claim in the world. And the inheritors,
being remote, would not be likely to abandon their just rights, for
sentimental reasons regarding an entire stranger. I assure you, my dear
sirs, I am rejoiced at the result, perfectly rejoiced."
He was a good fellow, but his rejoicing at the one little part, in which
he was officially interested, of so great a tragedy, was an object-lesson
in the limitations of sympathetic understanding.
He did not remain long, but said he would look in later in the day and
see Lord Godalming. His coming, however, had been a certain comfort
to us, since it assured us that we should not have to dread hostile
criticism as to any of our acts. Arthur was expected at five o'clock,
so a little before that time we visited the death chamber. It was so
in very truth, for now both mother and daughter lay in it. The undertaker,
true to his craft, had made the best display he could of his goods,
and there was a mortuary air about the place that lowered our spirits
at once.
Van Helsing ordered the former arrangement to be adhered to, explaining
that, as Lord Godalming was coming very soon, it would be less harrowing
to his feelings to see all that was left of his fiancee quite alone.
The undertaker seemed shocked at his own stupidity and exerted himself
to restore things to the condition in which we left them the night before,
so that when Arthur came such shocks to his feelings as we could avoid
were saved.
Poor fellow! He looked desperately sad and broken. Even his stalwart
manhood seemed to have shrunk somewhat under the strain of his much-tried
emotions. He had, I knew, been very genuinely and devotedly attached
to his father, and to lose him, and at such a time, was a bitter blow
to him. With me he was warm as ever, and to Van Helsing he was sweetly
courteous. But I could not help seeing that there was some constraint
with him. The professor noticed it too, and motioned me to bring him
upstairs. I did so, and left him at the door of the room, as I felt
he would like to be quite alone with her, but he took my arm and led
me in, saying huskily,
"You loved her too, old fellow. She told me all about it, and there
was no friend had a closer place in her heart than you. I don't know
how to thank you for all you have done for her. I can't think yet. .
."
Here he suddenly broke down, and threw his arms round my shoulders and
laid his head on my breast, crying, "Oh, Jack! Jack! What shall
I do? The whole of life seems gone from me all at once, and there is
nothing in the wide world for me to live for."
I comforted him as well as I could. In such cases men do not need much
expression. A grip of the hand, the tightening of an arm over the shoulder,
a sob in unison, are expressions of sympathy dear to a man's heart.
I stood still and silent till his sobs died away, and then I said softly
to him, "Come and look at her."
Together we moved over to the bed, and I lifted the lawn from her face.
God! How beautiful she was. Every hour seemed to be enhancing her loveliness.
It frightened and amazed me somewhat. And as for Arthur, he fell to
trembling, and finally was shaken with doubt as with an ague. At last,
after a long pause, he said to me in a faint whisper, "Jack, is
she really dead?"
I assured him sadly that it was so, and went on to suggest, for I felt
that such a horrible doubt should not have life for a moment longer
than I could help, that it often happened that after death faces become
softened and even resolved into their youthful beauty, that this was
especially so when death had been preceded by any acute or prolonged
suffering. I seemed to quite do away with any doubt, and after kneeling
beside the couch for a while and looking at her lovingly and long, he
turned aside. I told him that that must be goodbye, as the coffin had
to be prepared, so he went back and took her dead hand in his and kissed
it, and bent over and kissed her forehead. He came away, fondly looking
back over his shoulder at her as he came.
I left him in the drawing room, and told Van Helsing that he had said
goodbye, so the latter went to the kitchen to tell the undertaker's
men to proceed with the preperations and to screw up the coffin. When
he came out of the room again I told him of Arthur's question, and he
replied, "I am not surprised. Just now I doubted for a moment myself!"
We all dined together, and I could see that poor Art was trying to make
the best of things. Van Helsing had been silent all dinner time, but
when we had lit our cigars he said, "Lord. . ., but Arthur interrupted
him.
"No, no, not that, for God's sake! Not yet at any rate. Forgive
me, sir. I did not mean to speak offensively. It is only because my
loss is so recent."
The Professor answered very sweetly, "I only used that name because
I was in doubt. I must not call you `Mr.' and I have grown to love you,
yes, my dear boy, to love you, as Arthur."
Arthur held out his hand, and took the old man's warmly. "Call
me what you will," he said. "I hope I may always have the
title of a friend. And let me say that I am at a loss for words to thank
you for your goodness to my poor dear." He paused a moment, and
went on, "I know that she understood your goodness even better
than I do. And if I was rude or in any way wanting at that time you
acted so, you remember,"-- the Professor nodded--"You must
forgive me."
He answered with a grave kindness, "I know it was hard for you
to quite trust me then, for to trust such violence needs to understand,
and I take it that you do not, that you cannot, trust me now, for you
do not yet understand. And there may be more times when I shall want
you to trust when you cannot, and may not, and must not yet understand.
But the time will come when your trust shall be whole and complete in
me, and when you shall understand as though the sunlight himself shone
through. Then you shall bless me from first to last for your own sake,
and for the sake of others, and for her dear sake to whom I swore to
protect."
"And indeed, indeed, sir," said Arthur warmly. "I shall
in all ways trust you. I know and believe you have a very noble heart,
and you are Jack's friend, and you were hers. You shall do what you
like."
The Professor cleared his throat a couple of times, as though about
to speak, and finally said, "May I ask you something now?"
"Certainly."
"You know that Mrs. Westenra left you all her property?"
"No, poor dear. I never thought of it."
"And as it is all yours, you have a right to deal with it as you
will. I want you to give me permission to read all Miss Lucy's papers
and letters. Believe me, it is no idle curiosity. I have a motive of
which, be sure, she would have approved. I have them all here. I took
them before we knew that all was yours, so that no strange hand might
touch them, no strange eye look through words into her soul. I shall
keep them, if I may. Even you may not see them yet, but I shall keep
them safe. No word shall be lost, and in the good time I shall give
them back to you. It is a hard thing that I ask, but you will do it,
will you not, for Lucy's sake?"
Arthur spoke out heartily, like his old self, "Dr. Van Helsing,
you may do what you will. I feel that in saying this I am doing what
my dear one would have approved. I shall not trouble you with questions
till the time comes."
The old Professor stood up as he said solemnly, "And you are right.
There will be pain for us all, but it will not be all pain, nor will
this pain be the last. We and you too, you most of all, dear boy, will
have to pass through the bitter water before we reach the sweet. But
we must be brave of heart and unselfish, and do our duty, and all will
be well!"
I slept on a sofa in Arthur's room that night. Van Helsing did not go
to bed at all. He went to and fro, as if patroling the house, and was
never out of sight of the room where Lucy lay in her coffin, strewn
with the wild garlic flowers, which sent through the odor of lily and
rose, a heavy, overpowering smell into the night.
MINA HARKER'S JOURNAL
22 September.--In the train to Exeter. Jonathan sleeping. It seems only
yesterday that the last entry was made, and yet how much between then,
in Whitby and all the world before me, Jonathan away and no news of
him, and now, married to Jonathan, Jonathan a solicitor, a partner,
rich, master of his business, Mr. Hawkins dead and buried, and Jonathan
with another attack that may harm him. Some day he may ask me about
it. Down it all goes. I am rusty in my shorthand, see what unexpected
prosperity does for us, so it may be as well to freshen it up again
with an exercise anyhow.
The service was very simple and very solemn. There were only ourselves
and the servants there, one or two old friends of his from Exeter, his
London agent, and a gentleman representing Sir John Paxton, the President
of the Incorporated Law Society. Jonathan and I stood hand in hand,
and we felt that our best and dearest friend was gone from us.
We came back to town quietly, taking a bus to Hyde Park Corner. Jonathan
thought it would interest me to go into the Row for a while, so we sat
down. But there were very few people there, and it was sad-looking and
desolate to see so many empty chairs. It made us think of the empty
chair at home. So we got up and walked down Piccadilly. Jonathan was
holding me by the arm, the way he used to in the old days before I went
to school. I felt it very improper, for you can't go on for some years
teaching etiquette and decorum to other girls without the pedantry of
it biting into yourself a bit. But it was Jonathan, and he was my husband,
and we didn't know anybody who saw us, and we didn't care if they did,
so on we walked. I was looking at a very beautiful girl, in a big cart-wheel
hat, sitting in a victoria outside Guiliano's, when I felt Jonathan
clutch my arm so tight that he hurt me, and he said under his breath,
"My God!"
I am always anxious about Jonathan, for I fear that some nervous fit
may upset him again. So I turned to him quickly, and asked him what
it was that disturbed him.
He was very pale, and his eyes seemed bulging out as, half in terror
and half in amazement, he gazed at a tall, thin man, with a beaky nose
and black moustache and pointed beard, who was also observing the pretty
girl. He was looking at her so hard that he did not see either of us,
and so I had a good view of him. His face was not a good face. It was
hard, and cruel, and sensual, and big white teeth, that looked all the
whiter because his lips were so red, were pointed like an animal's.
Jonathan kept staring at him, till I was afraid he would notice. I feared
he might take it ill, he looked so fierce and nasty. I asked Jonathan
why he was disturbed, and he answered, evidently thinking that I knew
as much about it as he did, "Do you see who it is?"
"No, dear," I said. "I don't know him, who is it?"
His answer seemed to shock and thrill me, for it was said as if he did
not know that it was me, Mina, to whom he was speaking. "It is
the man himself!"
The poor dear was evidently terrified at something, very greatly terrified.
I do believe that if he had not had me to lean on and to support him
he would have sunk down. He kept staring. A man came out of the shop
with a small parcel, and gave it to the lady, who then drove off. Th
e dark man kept his eyes fixed on her, and when the carriage moved up
Piccadilly he followed in the same direction, and hailed a hansom. Jonathan
kept looking after him, and said, as if to himself,
"I believe it is the Count, but he has grown young. My God, if
this be so! Oh, my God! My God! If only I knew! If only I knew!"
He was distressing himself so much that I feared to keep his mind on
the subject by asking him any questions, so I remained silent. I drew
away quietly, and he, holding my arm, came easily. We walked a little
further, and then went in and sat for a while in the Green Park. It
was a hot day for autumn, and there was a comfortable seat in a shady
place. After a few minutes' staring at nothing, Jonathan's eyes closed,
and he went quickly into a sleep, with his head on my shoulder. I thought
it was the best thing for him, so did not disturb him. In about twenty
minutes he woke up, and said to me quite cheerfully,
"Why, Mina, have I been asleep! Oh, do forgive me for being so
rude. Come, and we'll have a cup of tea somewhere."
He had evidently forgotten all about the dark stranger, as in his illness
he had forgotten all that this episode had reminded him of. I don't
like this lapsing into forgetfulness. It may make or continue some injury
to the brain. I must not ask him, for fear I shall do more harm than
good, but I must somehow learn the facts of his journey abroad. The
time is come, I fear, when I must open the parcel, and know what is
written. Oh, Jonathan, you will, I know, forgive me if I do wrong, but
it is for your own dear sake.
Later.--A sad homecoming in every way, the house empty of the dear soul
who was so good to us. Jonathan still pale and dizzy under a slight
relapse of his malady, and now a telegram from Van Helsing, whoever
he may be. "You will be grieved to hear that Mrs. Westenra died
five days ago, and that Lucy died the day before yesterday. They were
both buried today."
Oh, what a wealth of sorrow in a few words! Poor Mrs. Westenra! Poor
Lucy! Gone, gone, never to return to us! And poor, poor Arthur, to have
lost such a sweetness out of his life! God help us all to bear our troubles.
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY-CONT.
22 September.--It is all over. Arthur has gone back to Ring, and has
taken Quincey Morris with him. What a fine fellow is Quincey! I believe
in my heart of hearts that he suffered as much about Lucy's death as
any of us, but he bore himself through it like a moral Viking. If America
can go on breeding men like that, she will be a power in the world indeed.
Van Helsing is lying down, having a rest preparatory to his journey.
He goes to Amsterdam tonight, but says he returns tomorrow night, that
he only wants to make some arrangements which can only be made personally.
He is to stop with me then, if he can. He says he has work to do in
London which may take him some time. Poor old fellow! I fear that the
strain of the past week has broken down even his iron strength. All
the time of the burial he was, I could see, putting some terrible restraint
on himself. When it was all over, we were standing beside Arthur, who,
poor fellow, was speaking of his part in the operation where his blood
had been transfused to his Lucy's veins. I could see Van Helsing's face
grow white and purple by turns. Arthur was saying that he felt since
then as if they two had been really married, and that she was his wife
in the sight of God. None of us said a word of the other operations,
and none of us ever shall. Arthur and Quincey went away together to
the station, and Van Helsing and I came on here. The moment we were
alone in the carriage he gave way to a regular fit of hysterics. He
has denied to me since that it was hysterics, and insisted that it was
only his sense of humor asserting itself under very terrible conditions.
He laughed till he cried, and I had to draw down the blinds lest any
one should see us and misjudge. And then he cried, till he laughed again,
and laughed and cried together, just as a woman does. I tried to be
stern with him, as one is to a woman under the circumstances, but it
had no effect. Men and women are so different in manifestations of nervous
strength or weakness! Then when his face grew grave and stern again
I asked him why his mirth, and why at such a time. His reply was in
a way characteristic of him, for it was logical and forceful and mysterious.
He said,
"Ah, you don't comprehend, friend John. Do not think that I am
not sad, though I laugh. See, I have cried even when the laugh did choke
me. But no more think that I am all sorry when I cry, for the laugh
he come just the same. Keep it always with you that laughter who knock
at your door and say, `May I come in?' is not true laughter. No! He
is a king, and he come when and how he like. He ask no person, he choose
no time of suitability. He say, `I am here.' Behold, in example I grieve
my heart out for that so sweet young girl. I give my blood for her,
though I am old and worn. I give my time, my skill, my sleep. I let
my other sufferers want that she may have all. And yet I can laugh at
her very grave, laugh when the clay from the spade of the sexton drop
upon her coffin and say `Thud, thud!' to my heart, till it send back
the blood from my cheek. My heart bleed for that poor boy, that dear
boy, so of the age of mine own boy had I been so blessed that he live,
and with his hair and eyes the same.
"There, you know now why I love him so. And yet when he say things
that touch my husband-heart to the quick, and make my father-heart yearn
to him as to no other man, not even you, friend John, for we are more
level in experiences than father and son, yet even at such a moment
King Laugh he come to me and shout and bellow in my ear,`Here I am!
Here I am!' till the blood come dance back and bring some of the sunshine
that he carry with him to my cheek. Oh, friend John, it is a strange
world, a sad world, a world full of miseries, and woes, and troubles.
And yet when King Laugh come, he make them all dance to the tune he
play. Bleeding hearts, and dry bones of the churchyard, and tears that
burn as they fall, all dance together to the music that he make with
that smileless mouth of him. And believe me, friend John, that he is
good to come, and kind. Ah, we men and women are like ropes drawn tight
with strain that pull us different ways. Then tears come, and like the
rain on the ropes, they brace us up, until perhaps the strain become
too great, and we break. But King Laugh he come like the sunshine, and
he ease off the strain again, and we bear to go on with our labor, what
it may be."
I did not like to wound him by pretending not to see his idea, but as
I did not yet understand the cause of his laughter, I asked him. As
he answered me his face grew stern, and he said in quite a different
tone,
"Oh, it was the grim irony of it all, this so lovely lady garlanded
with flowers, that looked so fair as life, till one by one we wondered
if she were truly dead, she laid in that so fine marble house in that
lonely churchyard, where rest so many of her kin, laid there with the
mother who loved her, and whom she loved, and that sacred bell going
"Toll! Toll! Toll!' so sad and slow, and those holy men, with the
white garments of the angel, pretending to read books, and yet all the
time their eyes never on the page, and all of us with the bowed head.
And all for what? She is dead, so! Is it not?"
"Well, for the life of me, Professor," I said, "I can't
see anything to laugh at in all that. Why, your expression makes it
a harder puzzle than before. But even if the burial service was comic,
what about poor Art and his trouble? Why his heart was simply breaking."
"Just so. Said he not that the transfusion of his blood to her
veins had made her truly his bride?"
"Yes, and it was a sweet and comforting idea for him."
"Quite so. But there was a difficulty, friend John. If so that,
then what about the others? Ho, ho! Then this so sweet maid is a polyandrist,
and me, with my poor wife dead to me, but alive by Church's law, though
no wits, all gone, even I, who am faithful husband to this now-no-wife,
am bigamist."
"I don't see where the joke comes in there either!" I said,
and I did not feel particularly pleased with him for saying such things.
He laid his hand on my arm, and said,
"Friend John, forgive me if I pain. I showed not my feeling to
others when it would wound, but only to you, my old friend, whom I can
trust. If you could have looked into my heart then when I want to laugh,
if you could have done so when the laugh arrived, if you could do so
now, when King Laugh have pack up his crown, and all that is to him,
for he go far, far away from me, and for a long, long time, maybe you
would perhaps pity me the most of all."
I was touched by the tenderness of his tone, and asked why.
"Because I know!"
And now we are all scattered, and for many a long day loneliness will
sit over our roofs with brooding wings. Lucy lies in the tomb of her
kin, a lordly death house in a lonely churchyard, away from teeming
London, where the air is fresh, and the sun rises over Hampstead Hill,
and where wild flowers grow of their own accord.
So I can finish this diary, and God only knows if I shall ever begin
another. If I do, or if I even open this again, it will be to deal with
different people and different themes, for here at the end, where the
romance of my life is told, ere I go back to take up the thread of my
life-work, I say sadly and without hope, "FINIS".
THE WESTMINSTER GAZETTE, 25 SEPTEMBER A HAMPSTEAD MYSTERY
The neighborhood of Hampstead is just at present exercised with a series
of events which seem to run on lines parallel to those of what was known
to the writers of headlines and "The Kensington Horror," or
"The Stabbing Woman," or "The Woman in Black." During
the past two or three days several cases have occurred of young children
straying from home or neglecting to return from their playing on the
Heath. In all these cases the children were too young to give any properly
intelligible account of themselves, but the consensus of their excuses
is that they had been with a "bloofer lady." It has always
been late in the evening when they have been missed, and on two occasions
the children have not been found until early in the following morning.
It is generally supposed in the neighborhood that, as the first child
missed gave as his reason for being away that a "bloofer lady"
had asked him to come for a walk, the others had picked up the phrase
and used it as occasion served. This is the more natural as the favorite
game of the little ones at present is luring each other away by wiles.
A correspondent writes us that to see some of the tiny tots pretending
to be the"bloofer lady" is supremely funny. Some of our caricaturists
might, he says, take a lesson in the irony of grotesque by comparing
the reality and the picture. It is only in accordance with general principles
of human nature that the "bloofer lady" should be the popular
role at these al fresco performances. Our correspondent naively says
that even Ellen Terry could not be so winningly attractive as some of
these grubby-faced little children pretend, and even imagine themselves,
to be.
There is, however, possibly a serious side to the question, for some
of the children, indeed all who have been missed at night, have been
slightly torn or wounded in the throat. The wounds seem such as might
be made by a rat or a small dog, and although of not much importance
individually, would tend to show that whatever animal inflicts them
has a system or method of its own. The police of the division have been
instructed to keep a sharp lookout for straying children, especially
when very young, in and around Hampstead Heath, and for any stray dog
which may be about.
THE WESTMINSTER GAZETTE, 25 SEPTEMBER EXTRA SPECIAL
THE HAMPSTEAD HORROR
ANOTHER CHILD INJURED
THE "BLOOFER LADY"
We have just received intelligence that another child, missed last night,
was only discovered late in the morning under a furze bush at the Shooter's
Hill side of Hampstead Heath, which is perhaps, less frequented than
the other parts. It has the same tiny wound in the throat as has been
noticed in other cases. It was terribly weak, and looked quite emaciated.
It too, when partially restored, had the common story to tell of being
lured away by the "bloofer lady".
CHAPTER 14
MINA HARKER'S JOURNAL
23 September.--Jonathan is better after a bad night. I am so glad that
he has plenty of work to do, for that keeps his mind off the terrible
things, and oh, I am rejoiced that he is not now weighed down with the
responsibility of his new position. I knew he would be true to himself,
and now how proud I am to see my Jonathan rising to the height of his
advancement and keeping pace in all ways with the duties that come upon
him. He will be away all day till late, for he said he could not lunch
at home. My household work is done, so I shall take his foreign journal,
and lock myself up in my room and read it.
24 September.--I hadn't the heart to write last night, that terrible
record of Jonathan's upset me so. Poor dear! How he must have suffered,
whether it be true or only imagination. I wonder if there is any truth
in it at all. Did he get his brain fever, and then write all those terrible
things, or had he some cause for it all? I suppose I shall never know,
for I dare not open the subject to him. And yet that man we saw yesterday!
He seemed quite certain of him, poor fellow! I suppose it was the funeral
upset him and sent his mind back on some train of thought.
He believes it all himself. I remember how on our wedding day he said
"Unless some solemn duty come upon me to go back to the bitter
hours, asleep or awake, mad or sane. . ." There seems to be through
it all some thread of continuity. That fearful Count was coming to London.
If it should be, and he came to London, with its teeming millions. .
.There may be a solemn duty, and if it come we must not shrink from
it. I shall be prepared. I shall get my typewriter this very hour and
begin transcribing. Then we shall be ready for other eyes if required.
And if it be wanted, then, perhaps, if I am ready, poor Jonathan may
not be upset, for I can speak for him and never let him be troubled
or worried with it at all. If ever Jonathan quite gets over the nervousness
he may want to tell me of it all, and I can ask him questions and find
out things, and see how I may comfort him.
LETTER, VAN HELSING TO MRS. HARKER
24 September
(Confidence)
"Dear Madam,
"I pray you to pardon my writing, in that I am so far friend as
that I sent to you sad news of Miss Lucy Westenra's death. By the kindness
of Lord Godalming, I am empowered to read her letters and papers, for
I am deeply concerned about certain matters vitally important. In them
I find some letters from you, which show how great friends you were
and how you love her. Oh, Madam Mina, by that love, I implore you, help
me. It is for others' good that I ask, to redress great wrong, and to
lift much and terrible troubles, that may be more great than you can
know. May it be that I see you? You can trust me. I am friend of Dr.
John Seward and of Lord Godalming (that was Arthur of Miss Lucy). I
must keep it private for the present from all. I should come to Exeter
to see you at once if you tell me I am privilege to come, and where
and when. I implore your pardon, Madam. I have read your letters to
poor Lucy, and know how good you are and how your husband suffer. So
I pray you, if it may be, enlighten him not, least it may harm. Again
your pardon, and forgive me.
"VAN HELSING"
TELEGRAM, MRS. HARKER TO VAN HELSING
25 September.--Come today by quarter past ten train if you can catch
it. Can see you any time you call. "WILHELMINA HARKER"
MINA HARKER'S JOURNAL
25 September.--I cannot help feeling terribly excited as the time draws
near for the visit of Dr. Van Helsing, for somehow I expect that it
will throw some light upon Jonathan's sad experience, and as he attended
poor dear Lucy in her last illness, he can tell me all about her. That
is the reason of his coming. It is concerning Lucy and her sleep-walking,
and not about Jonathan. Then I shall never know the real truth now!
How silly I am. That awful journal gets hold of my imagination and tinges
everything with something of its own color. Of course it is about Lucy.
That habit came back to the poor dear, and that awful night on the cliff
must have made her ill. I had almost forgotten in my own affairs how
ill she was afterwards. She must have told him of her sleep-walking
adventure on the cliff, and that I knew all about it, and now he wants
me to tell him what I know, so that he may understand. I hope I did
right in not saying anything of it to Mrs. Westenra. I should never
forgive myself if any act of mine, were it even a negative one, brought
harm on poor dear Lucy. I hope too, Dr. Van Helsing will not blame me.
I have had so much trouble and anxiety of late that I feel I cannot
bear more just at present.
I suppose a cry does us all good at times, clears the air as other rain
does. Perhaps it was reading the journal yesterday that upset me, and
then Jonathan went away this morning to stay away from me a whole day
and night, the first time we have been parted since our marriage. I
do hope the dear fellow will take care of himself, and that nothing
will occur to upset him. It is two o'clock, and the doctor will be here
soon now. I shall say nothing of Jonathan's journal unless he asks me.
I am so glad I have typewritten out my own journal, so that, in case
he asks about Lucy, I can hand it to him. It will save much questioning.
Later.--He has come and gone. Oh, what a strange meeting, and how it
all makes my head whirl round. I feel like one in a dream. Can it be
all possible, or even a part of it? If I had not read Jonathan's journal
first, I should never have accepted even a possibility. Poor, poor,
dear Jonathan! How he must have suffered. Please the good God, all this
may not upset him again. I shall try to save him from it. But it may
be even a consolation and a help to him, terrible though it be and awful
in its consequences, to know for certain that his eyes and ears and
brain did not deceive him, and that it is all true. It may be that it
is the doubt which haunts him, that when the doubt is removed, no matter
which, waking or dreaming, may prove the truth, he will be more satisfied
and better able to bear the shock. Dr. Van Helsing must be a good man
as well as a clever one if he is Arthur's friend and Dr. Seward's, and
if they brought him all the way from Holland to look after Lucy. I feel
from having seen him that he is good and kind and of a noble nature.
When he comes tomorrow I shall ask him about Jonathan. And then, please
God, all this sorrow and anxiety may lead to a good end. I used to think
I would like to practice interviewing. Jonathan's friend on "The
Exeter News" told him that memory is everything in such work, that
you must be able to put down exactly almost every word spoken, even
if you had to refine some of it afterwards. Here was a rare interview.
I shall try to record it verbatim.
It was half-past two o'clock when the knock came. I took my courage
a deux mains and waited. In a few minutes Mary opened the door, and
announced "Dr. Van Helsing".
I rose and bowed, and he came towards me, a man of medium weight, strongly
built, with his shoulders set back over a broad, deep chest and a neck
well balanced on the trunk as the head is on the neck. The poise of
the head strikes me at once as indicative of thought and power. The
head is noble, well-sized, broad, and large behind the ears. The face,
clean-shaven, shows a hard, square chin, a large resolute, mobile mouth,
a good-sized nose, rather straight, but with quick, sensitive nostrils,
that seem to broaden as the big bushy brows come down and the mouth
tightens. The forehead is broad and fine, rising at first almost straight
and then sloping back above two bumps or ridges wide apart, such a forehead
that the reddish hair cannot possibly tumble over it, but falls naturally
back and to the sides. Big, dark blue eyes are set widely apart, and
are quick and tender or stern with the man's moods. He said to me,
"Mrs. Harker, is it not?" I bowed assent.
"That was Miss Mina Murray?" Again I assented.
"It is Mina Murray that I came to see that was friend of that poor
dear child Lucy Westenra. Madam Mina, it is on account of the dead that
I come."
"Sir," I said, "you could have no better claim on me
than that you were a friend and helper of Lucy Westenra."And I
held out my hand. He took it and said tenderly,
"Oh, Madam Mina, I know that the friend of that poor little girl
must be good, but I had yet to learn. . ." He finished his speech
with a courtly bow. I asked him what it was that he wanted to see me
about, so he at once began.
"I have read your letters to Miss Lucy. Forgive me, but I had to
begin to inquire somewhere, and there was none to ask. I know that you
were with her at Whitby. She sometimes kept a diary, you need not look
surprised, Madam Mina. It was begun after you had left, and was an imitation
of you, and in that diary she traces by inference certain things to
a sleep-walking in which she puts down that you saved her. In great
perplexity then I come to you, and ask you out of your so much kindness
to tell me all of it that you can remember."
"I can tell you, I think, Dr. Van Helsing, all about it."
"Ah, then you have good memory for facts, for details? It is not
always so with young ladies."
"No, doctor, but I wrote it all down at the time. I can show it
to you if you like."
"Oh, Madam Mina, I well be grateful. You will do me much favor."
I could not resist the temptation of mystifying him a bit, I suppose
it is some taste of the original apple that remains still in our mouths,
so I handed him the shorthand diary. He took it with a grateful bow,
and said, "May I read it?"
"If you wish," I answered as demurely as I could. He opened
it, and for an instant his face fell. Then he stood up and bowed.
"Oh, you so clever woman!" he said. "I knew long that
Mr. Jonathan was a man of much thankfulness, but see, his wife have
all the good things. And will you not so much honor me and so help me
as to read it for me? Alas! I know not the shorthand."
By this time my little joke was over, and I was almost ashamed. So I
took the typewritten copy from my work basket and handed it to him.
"Forgive me," I said. "I could not help it, but I had
been thinking that it was of dear Lucy that you wished to ask, and so
that you might not have time to wait, not on my account, but because
I know your time must be precious, I have written it out on the typewriter
for you."
He took it and his eyes glistened. "You are so good," he said.
"And may I read it now? I may want to ask you some things when
I have read."
"By all means," I said. "read it over whilst I order
lunch, and then you can ask me questions whilst we eat."
He bowed and settled himself in a chair with his back to the light,
and became so absorbed in the papers, whilst I went to see after lunch
chiefly in order that he might not be disturbed. When I came back, I
found him walking hurriedly up and down the room, his face all ablaze
with excitement. He rushed up to me and took me by both hands.
"Oh, Madam Mina," he said, "how can I say what I owe
to you? This paper is as sunshine. It opens the gate to me. I am dazed,
I am dazzled, with so much light, and yet clouds roll in behind the
light every time. But that you do not, cannot comprehend. Oh, but I
am grateful to you, you so clever woman. Madame," he said this
very solemnly, "if ever Abraham Van Helsing can do anything for
you or yours, I trust you will let me know. It will be pleasure and
delight if I may serve you as a friend, as a friend, but all I have
ever learned, all I can ever do, shall be for you and those you love.
There are darknesses in life, and there are lights. You are one of the
lights. You will have a happy life and a good life, and your husband
will be blessed in you."
"But, doctor, you praise me too much, and you do not know me."
"Not know you, I, who am old, and who have studied all my life
men and women, I who have made my specialty the brain and all that belongs
to him and all that follow from him! And I have read your diary that
you have so goodly written for me, and which breathes out truth in every
line. I, who have read your so sweet letter to poor Lucy of your marriage
and your trust, not know you! Oh, Madam Mina, good women tell all their
lives, and by day and by hour and by minute, such things that angels
can read. And we men who wish to know have in us something of angels'
eyes. Your husband is noble nature, and you are noble too, for you trust,
and trust cannot be where there is mean nature. And your husband, tell
me of him. Is he quite well? Is all that fever gone, and is he strong
and hearty?"
I saw here an opening to ask him about Jonathan, so I said, "He
was almost recovered, but he has been greatly upset by Mr. Hawkins death."
He interrupted, "Oh, yes. I know. I know. I have read your last
two letters."
I went on, "I suppose this upset him, for when we were in town
on Thursday last he had a sort of shock."
"A shock, and after brain fever so soon! That is not good. What
kind of shock was it?"
"He thought he saw some one who recalled something terrible, something
which led to his brain fever." And here the whole thing seemed
to overwhelm me in a rush. The pity for Jonathan, the horror which he
experienced, the whole fearful mystery of his diary, and the fear that
has been brooding over me ever since, all came in a tumult. I suppose
I was hysterical, for I threw myself on my knees and held up my hands
to him, and implored him to make my husband well again. He took my hands
and raised me up, and made me sit on the sofa, and sat by me. He held
my hand in his, and said to me with, oh, such infinite sweetness,
"My life is a barren and lonely one, and so full of work that I
have not had much time for friendships, but since I have been summoned
to here by my friend John Seward I have known so many good people and
seen such nobility that I feel more than ever, and it has grown with
my advancing years, the loneliness of my life. Believe me, then, that
I come here full of respect for you, and you have given me hope, hope,
not in what I am seeking of, but that there are good women still left
to make life happy, good women, whose lives and whose truths may make
good lesson for the children that are to be. I am glad, glad, that I
may here be of some use to you. For if your husband suffer, he suffer
within the range of my study and experience. I promise you that I will
gladly do all for him that I can, all to make his life strong and manly,
and your life a happy one. Now you must eat. You are overwrought and
perhaps over-anxious. Husband Jonathan would not like to see you so
pale, and what he like not where he love, is not to his good. Therefore
for his sake you must eat and smile. You have told me about Lucy, and
so now we shall not speak of it, lest it distress. I shall stay in Exeter
tonight, for I want to think much over what you have told me, and when
I have thought I will ask you questions, if I may. And then too, you
will tell me of husband Jonathan's trouble so far as you can, but not
yet. You must eat now, afterwards you shall tell me all."
After lunch, when we went back to the drawing room, he said to me, "And
now tell me all about him."
When it came to speaking to this great learned man, I began to fear
that he would think me a weak fool, and Jonathan a madman, that journal
is all so strange, and I hesitated to go on. But he was so sweet and
kind, and he had promised to help, and I trusted him, so I said,
"Dr. Van Helsing, what I have to tell you is so queer that you
must not laugh at me or at my husband. I have been since yesterday in
a sort of fever of doubt. You must be kind to me, and not think me foolish
that I have even half believed some very strange things."
He reassured me by his manner as well as his words when he said, "Oh,
my dear, if you only know how strange is the matter regarding which
I am here, it is you who would laugh. I have learned not to think little
of any one's belief, no matter how strange it may be. I have tried to
keep an open mind, and it is not the ordinary things of life that could
close it, but the strange things, the extraordinary things, the things
that make one doubt if they be mad or sane."
"Thank you, thank you a thousand times! You have taken a weight
off my mind. If you will let me, I shall give you a paper to read. It
is long, but I have typewritten it out. It will tell you my trouble
and Jonathan's. It is the copy of his journal when abroad, and all that
happened. I dare not say anything of it. You will read for yourself
and judge. And then when I see you, perhaps, you will be very kind and
tell me what you think."
"I promise," he said as I gave him the papers. "I shall
in the morning, as soon as I can, come to see you and your husband,
if I may."
"Jonathan will be here at half-past eleven, and you must come to
lunch with us and see him then. You could catch the quick 3:34 train,
which will leave you at Paddington before eight." He was surprised
at my knowledge of the trains offhand, but he does not know that I have
made up all the trains to and from Exeter, so that I may help Jonathan
in case he is in a hurry.
So he took the papers with him and went away, and I sit here thinking,
thinking I don't know what.
LETTER (by hand), VAN HELSING TO MRS. HARKER
25 September, 6 o'clock
"Dear Madam Mina,
"I have read your husband's so wonderful diary. You may sleep without
doubt. Strange and terrible as it is, it is true! I will pledge my life
on it. It may be worse for others, but for him and you there is no dread.
He is a noble fellow, and let me tell you from experience of men, that
one who would do as he did in going down that wall and to that room,
aye, and going a second time, is not one to be injured in permanence
by a shock. His brain and his heart are all right, this I swear, before
I have even seen him, so be at rest. I shall have much to ask him of
other things. I am blessed that today I come to see you, for I have
learn all at once so much that again I am dazzled, dazzled more than
ever, and I must think.
"Yours the most faithful,
"Abraham Van Helsing."
LETTER, MRS. HARKER TO VAN HELSING
25 September, 6:30 P.M.
"My dear Dr. Van Helsing,
"A thousand thanks for your kind letter, which has taken a great
weight off my mind. And yet, if it be true, what terrible things there
are in the world, and what an awful thing if that man, that monster,
be really in London! I fear to think. I have this moment, whilst writing,
had a wire from Jonathan, saying that he leaves by the 6:25 tonight
from Launceston and will be here at 10:18, so that I shall have no fear
tonight. Will you, therefore, instead of lunching with us, please come
to breakfast at eight o'clock, if this be not too early for you? You
can get away, if you are in a hurry, by the 10:30 train, which will
bring you to Paddington by 2:35. Do not answer this, as I shall take
it that, if I do not hear, you will come to breakfast.
"Believe me,
"Your faithful and grateful friend,
"Mina Harker."
JONATHAN HARKER'S JOURNAL
26 September.--I thought never to write in this diary again, but the
time has come. When I got home last night Mina had supper ready, and
when we had supped she told me of Van Helsing's visit, and of her having
given him the two diaries copied out, and of how anxious she has been
about me. She showed me in the doctor's letter that all I wrote down
was true. It seems to have made a new man of me. It was the doubt as
to the reality of the whole thing that knocked me over. I felt impotent,
and in the dark, and distrustful. But, now that I know, I am not afraid,
even of the Count. He has succeeded after all, then, in his design in
getting to London, and it was he I saw. He has got younger, and how?
Van Helsing is the man to unmask him and hunt him out, if he is anything
like what Mina says. We sat late, and talked it over. Mina is dressing,
and I shall call at the hotel in a few minutes and bring him over.
He was, I think, surprised to see me. When I came into the room whee
he was, and introduced myself, he took me by the shoulder, and turned
my face round to the light, and said, after a sharp scrutiny,
"But Madam Mina told me you were ill, that you had had a shock."
It was so funny to hear my wife called `Madam Mina' by this kindly,
strong-faced old man. I smiled, and said, "I was ill, I have had
a shock, but you have cured me already."
"And how?"
"By your letter to Mina last night. I was in doubt, and then everything
took a hue of unreality, and I did not know what to trust, even the
evidence of my own senses. Not knowing what to trust, I did not know
what to do, and so had only to keep on working in what had hitherto
been the groove of my life. The groove ceased to avail me, and I mistrusted
myself. Doctor, you don't know what it is to doubt everything, even
yourself. No, you don't, you couldn't with eyebrows like yours."
He seemed pleased, and laughed as he said, "So! You are a physiognomist.
I learn more here with each hour. I am with so much pleasure coming
to you to breakfast, and, oh, sir, you will pardon praise from an old
man, but you are blessed in your wife."
I would listen to him go on praising Mina for a day, so I simply nodded
and stood silent.
"She is one of God's women, fashioned by His own hand to show us
men and other women that there is a heaven where we can enter, and that
its light can be here on earth. So true, so sweet, so noble, so little
an egoist, and that, let me tell you, is much in this age, so sceptical
and selfish. And you, sir. . . I have read all the letters to poor Miss
Lucy, and some of them speak of you, so I know you since some days from
the knowing of others, but I have seen your true self since last night.
You will give me your hand, will you not? And let us be friends for
all our lives."
We shook hands, and he was so earnest and so kind that it made me quite
choky.
"and now," he said, "may I ask you for some more help?
I have a great task to do, and at the beginning it is to know. You can
help me here. Can you tell me what went before your going to Transylvania?
Later on I may ask more help, and of a different kind, but at first
this will do."
"Look here, Sir," I said, "does what you have to do concern
the Count?"
"It does," he said solemnly."
"Then I am with you heart and soul. As you go by the 10:30 train,
you will not have time to read them, but I shall get the bundle of papers.
You can take them with you and read them in the train."
After breakfast I saw him to the station. When we were parting he said,
"Perhaps you will come to town if I send for you, and take Madam
Mina too."
"We shall both come when you will," I said.
I had got him the morning papers and the London papers of the previous
night, and while we were talking at the carriage window, waiting for
the train to start, he was turning them over. His eyes suddenly seemed
to catch something in one of them, "The Westminster Gazette",
I knew it by the color, and he grew quite white. He read something intently,
groaning to himself, "Mein Gott! Mein Gott! So soon! So soon!"
I do not think he remembered me at the moment. Just then the whistle
blew, and the train moved off. This recalled him to himself, and he
leaned out of the window and waved his hand, calling out, "Love
to Madam Mina. I shall write so soon as ever I can."
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY
26 September.--Truly there is no such thing as finality. Not a week
since I said "Finis," and yet here I am starting fresh again,
or rather going on with the record. Until this afternoon I had no cause
to think of what is done. Renfield had become, to all intents, as sane
as he ever was. He was already well ahead with his fly business, and
he had just started in the spider line also, so he had not been of any
trouble to me. I had a letter from Arthur, written on Sunday, and from
it I gather that he is bearing up wonderfully well. Quincey Morris is
with him, and that is much of a help, for he himself is a bubbling well
of good spirits. Quincey wrote me a line too, and from him I hear that
Arthur is beginning to recover something of his old buoyancy, so as
to them all my mind is at rest. As for myself, I was settling down to
my work with the enthusiasm which I used to have for it, so that I might
fairly have said that the wound which poor Lucy left on me was becoming
cicatrised.
Everything is, however, now reopened, and what is to be the end God
only knows. I have an idea that Van Helsing thinks he knows, too, but
he will only let out enough at a time to whet curiosity. He went to
Exeter yesterday, and stayed there all night. Today he came back, and
almost bounded into the room at about half-past five o'clock, and thrust
last night's "Westminster Gazette" into my hand.
"What do you think of that?" he asked as he stood back and
folded his arms.
I looked over the paper, for I really did not know what he meant, but
he took it from me and pointed out a paragraph about children being
decoyed away at Hampstead. It did not convey much to me, until I reached
a passage where it described small puncture wounds on their throats.
An idea struck me, and I looked up.
"Well?" he said.
"It is like poor Lucy's."
"And what do you make of it?"
"Simply that there is some cause in common. Whatever it was that
injured her has injured them." I did not quite understand his answer.
"That is true indirectly, but not directly."
"How do you mean, Professor?" I asked. I was a little inclined
to take his seriousness lightly, for, after all, four days of rest and
freedom from burning, harrowing, anxiety does help to restore one's
spirits, but when I saw his face, it sobered me. Never, even in the
midst of our despair about poor Lucy, had he looked more stern.
"Tell me!" I said. "I can hazard no opinion. I do not
know what to think, and I have no data on which to found a conjecture."
"Do you mean to tell me, friend John, that you have no suspicion
as to what poor Lucy died of, not after all the hints given, not only
by events, but by me?"
"Of nervous prostration following a great loss or waste of blood."
"And how was the blood lost or wasted?" I shook my head.
He stepped over and sat down beside me, and went on, "You are a
clever man, friend John. You reason well, and your wit is bold, but
you are too prejudiced. You do not let your eyes see nor your ears hear,
and that which is outside your daily life is not of account to you.
Do you not think that there are things which you cannot understand,
and yet which are, that some people see things that others cannot? But
there are things old and new which must not be contemplated by men's
eyes, because they know, or think they know, some things which other
men have told them. Ah, it is the fault of our science that it wants
to explain all, and if it explain not, then it says there is nothing
to explain. But yet we see around us every day the growth of new beliefs,
which think themselves new, and which are yet but the old, which pretend
to be young, like the fine ladies at the opera. I suppose now you do
not believe in corporeal transference. No? Nor in materialization. No?
Nor in astral bodies. No? Nor in the reading of thought. No? Nor in
hypnotism. . ."
"Yes," I said. "Charcot has proved that pretty well."
He smiled as he went on, "Then you are satisfied as to it. Yes?
And of course then you understand how it act, and can follow the mind
of the great Charcot, alas that he is no more, into the very soul of
the patient that he influence. No? Then, friend John, am I to take it
that you simply accept fact, and are satisfied to let from premise to
conclusion be a blank? No? Then tell me, for I am a student of the brain,
how you accept hypnotism
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